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27 February 2012

O&K 7

*5awla*

Now he leaves me again , he keeps hurting me OVER and OVER again!
What does he want from me! Why does he keep doing this why?!
I'm really sick of this, fuck him and fuck his love.

I threw his blanket away and I stood up. I wiped the tears that were about to fall down my cheeks.
I'm not going to cry anymore, I'm not going to feel bad or feel devestated.

Before I open the door, I looked back at his room. I don't know what happened to me suddenly, I didn't have the courage to leave. His room reminds me of him, its my lovers places. It keeps me warm and safe. I removed my hand from the doors handle and went to his closet.
I grabbed a hoddie that he'd always wear w '6maaith l 7'6ni!
Aah his smell, his perfume , it makes me go insane.

Tears appeared again , I can't control myself. Astwi wayd 7saash youm "3mair" is in the problem.

I keep telling myself to be strong , to don't ever let a guy do this to me but he's not any guy, he's my only guy. I'm not the kind of person that would cry over stupid love but again its not like any other love.
3mair had always been my whole life.
If I playback my whole life , you would see him everywhere. He was with me from the age of 2 lain al7een.

But ill try to act strong.

3afra; 3maaairr!!!!! Khawlaaa !!!!! Where are u!! Dinner is ready!

3afoor's voice woke me up , it made me shiver. If she enters and sees this , she's gonna make a joke out of it. She doesn't believe in us and I don't blame her. I don't believe in us either , he's just a misery that I don't wanna keep up with anymore.

I wiped my tears and I vowed not to cry over him ever again. Its not the first time enh yjr7ni w I bet it wouldn't be the last time. Let him leave just go to fucking america and don't come back!

I threw his hoddie away and I hesitated whether to open the door. Maba ashoofh. Please god don't make this more awkward.

I slowly pressed on the door's handle and took a small peek.

I captured 7mood and 3afoor but no sign of the ass.
I felt releaved and I went to sit down next to 3afoor.

I grabbed a slice of pizza and grabbed the remote to change that boring channel 7mood had on.

3afra; feeling better 7ayati?

5awla; yup way way better! Actually I'm feeling happy like this heavy weight is not there anymore

3afra; woow kl ha mn elrgad

5awla; yup

I tried not to cry , I tried to lie and act strong. I don't wanna be the weak 5awla anymore. I want to change , I want to live my life. My life doesn't revolve around 3mair alx bs , It needs others. I need to open my heart and not be afraid. I need to socialize and enjoy my life without his presence.

7mood; agool 5awool

5awla; goool 7mood goool allah y5leeek gool

I laughed and 3afra laughed too

3afra; wayh 5awool shu estwabch hahah:p

5awla; 3n la ygool bs!

We laughed again and he gave us the nastiest look ever.

M7md; mno sm7lch t'3yren el8anah w t6nzain b3d 7'6rtch?

5awla; kaify -.-"

3afra; 3ad 7mood ely knt etshoofh is the definition of boredom.

M7md; 3afoor , take my side babe. Were in this together B)

3afra; enshallah 7aaayaaatiiiii

M7md; 7beebti gooly 7g bnt 5altch t36eeeni elremote

3afra; mn 3yoon 7beebtk wallah

I laughed all along , they do this ALWAYS. They act all lovey dovey and che but let me tell u its FUNNY!

Like u see 3afraaa flirting , which u would never get to see always. She's always serious w mathmha hal swalf but when she does it , OMG !

5awla; bs walla b6ni 3wrni mn el'67k ! Hahahaha

3afra; 36i elremotr 7g 7beebi yalla :@@@

I couldn't even move mn el'67k so she had to get up w ta5th elremote broo7ha! I knew they wanted to laugh so hard but holding it in.

3afra went to m7md , kissed his cheeks

3afra; hak 7beebi

M7md; fdaaitch 7ubyy

I started calming down w 6al3thm -.-

5awla; ok now stop its so EWW!

3afra; eww wayhch enzeen. Aayh 7moodi shoof shu etgool hay

She did that sad puppy face and m7md sawa 3mrh m39b w awwnh planning to hit me with the pillow

I ran away while laughing at my stupid very very stupid cousins. I heard them laughing too.

I went out to the beach , it was really dark. I wondered where he was. Mn kthr el'67k I slightly forgot about him for a minute.
I walked for what seemed like ages. My legs were hurting me mn elmashi but it was worth it.
Eljaw rw3aa w hdoo2 mashay 7d, next to our beach house shay house mal shabab kwaityeen.
Eyoon from time to time. I love them, they're so funny but I never get to hang out l2nh 3mair may5leeni. They're like super hot and super sweet. I miss them b3d .. mn zmaan ma shftthm. I walked by their house and I saw some open lights. I wondered if they where their but it couldn't be. Maybe 7d dash yn'6f or shay l2nh Rose she comes and cleans every beach house when she's told so by her bosses so I guess its rose.

I was heading back to our beach house , I got really scared and started running. A5aaaf mn eldarkness

While I was running , I bumped into something hard and strong l draja enh rasi 3wrni w 7ta jsmi -,-"

5awla; matshoof!!!!

I started screaming even though I didn't know mno kan hal ensan

***; la ashoof bs enty matshoofen

5awla; 3mair:o

3mair; wain knti?

5awla; may59k

I left him and started walking forward but he held my arm and pushed me back infront of him

3mair; 5awla latklmeni che

5awla; hdd eydy 3mair

3mair; as2lch wain knti

I tried to let go of my hand , ylst arfsh w a'6rbh l2ni 9dg wayd knt m39bh mnh!

5awla; LEAVE ME ALONE!

3mair: 5AWLA!

And I froze.

No words could describe my fear al7en.

5awla; en zen h d ni

3mair; 2a5r mrh bs2lch 5awool

5awla; KNT ATMSHA enzen!

3mair; ttmshain n9 ellaail broo7ch?

5awla; hayh shu feeha

He came very close to me , his face SO CLOSE to mine and he whispered

3mair; youm ana aklmch , la trad'deen

I coudlnt reply now , I just looked at him , I looked at his eyes. He looked mad.

I closed my eyes and I whispered back.

5awla; enta may59k feni ok! Enth 2a5r wa7d trms !

He came closer
He grabbed my arm and he started pushing me behind our beach house to the wall.
I was really scared.

His touch made me shiver.

3mair; lat5leni aswi shay maba asweh 5awla

5awla; shu 3ma ir sh u t ba mn I

he placed his head on my shoulders and into my neck

He started whispering things that made me so weak , I was about to fall.
His breath ya allah

3mair; t3ban ana 5awla t3ban

Lfait rasii w I kissed his ears

5awla; enzen ana hni , gooly shu feek , gooly shu mt3bnk

I was about to cry but no I'm not crying anymore.
I find myself hating him then loving him back again.

I pushed him away and I sat down on the floor because I was just tired mnh , tired mn al'3azh

My face was on my knees. He's not the only one suffering.

He came and sat right next to me.

He started swearing and saying things that I couldn't even understand.

His fone rang fj2a and he wouldn't reply.
His ringtone made me go insane!
Rf3t rasi
5awla; would u just reply y3ne?!

He just looked at me and then looked back down

It kept ringing mostly che an hour or so

I got angry so I grabbed his fone and I answered immedietly

5awla; 3mair is gonna call u back , bye

And when I was about to hang up , the caller spoke and I wish he didn't or may I say " she "

Girl; aloo 7beebi

I looked at him with complete shock , my hands were shaking

The fact that 3mair has a girl in mind and he's playing around with me made me feel sick. Completely sick.

I looked at the fone and there was " shamma ".


Shamma; ohoo aloo 3mair waink


And 3mair was a mess , he looked weak. He didn't even try to explain anything or a9ln does he have anything to explain.

Am I overreacting? Were not even officially a couple 9a7?
But why! He knows that I have feelings for him! Why do this to me 3mair why?

I gave him the fone and I walked away.

I walked away with tears, I vowed not to cry over him but how can I? How can he do this to me just HOW?

I was walking really fast like running not even walking. He didn't even call me or try to stop me.

--

*3mair*

I threw the fone away and I punched the wall a couple of times.

Laish mama , laish che tsween feena ? Laish t76meen wldch , laish tksreen 5a6rh! I can't stay here any longer. I can't hurt her , she makes me want her kl thanya akthr w akthr wna a3wrhaa b af3ali!
Uff ya dnya laish t'6lmeena ..

I can't even say good-bye to her now. I can't look at her walla m7d 7as feeni. A7eenh tt7rani wa7d 5ays 78eer ! Ya allah ufff

I started walking to our beach house , when I was about to go in.
I saw her sitting next to 3afra and crying really hard.

I over heard their conversation ;

3afra; omg 5awool goolyly balach! Aba afhm ma tshb3en 9ya7!

M7md; 5awla shu mstwi ! Yalsa t5wfeena

5awla; t5ylw entu bs t5ylw! 6laa3 y7b w7dh esmhaa shammaa t5ylw :( che yswi feeni cheee ! Ana 5awlaaa che yswi feeni ! 63nii thb7nii jr7nii 3afoor bamoot:( galby y7rgni y3wrnii wayd :( mdri kaif yalsa atnfs a9ln ! Walla t3banah walla w ygooly enh t3baan! Ely t3baan yseer yswi che! Laish lazm yt3bni laish! I wanna go back home! I'm hating this fucking house!

M7md; 5awool I'm gonna tell u now something but ull have to be super strong! I know u can't handle hearing it now bs hal shay lazm tsm3eenh

I knew What m7md was about to say but he shouldn't be the one saying it ...

I entered and all faces looked at me .

She was angry!

5awla; e6l3 br3 3maair ! Mabaaa ashoofk e6l3!

3mair; bs esm3eeni!

5awla; maba mabaaa :( bs 5lni fe 7ali akrhk tfhm shu y3ne akrhk yal ..

3mair; ESM3I ! Hal shay '3a9bn 3ni w shamma 56eebti! '39booni 2a5th'ha '39booni asafr '39booni enzeen! Youm agoolch t3ban y3ne 9dg t3ban ! Tt7rain ely yals yswti 3aybni ! Tt7rain ely yals amr feeh shay s'hl! Tt7rain ench matkoonen 7gi shayy ma y3wr! I've been suffering for 2 months w m7d 7ass feni!

She looked at me , she stood up and came next to me

She held my face and she smiled with tears

5awla; yals tt'3shmr wyay 9a7 3mair! Bs tba t'6aygni w tl3wzni 9a7 ! Hay mb 56ebtk 9a7!

She laughed and she tried wiping her tears

5awla; enth 7gii wna 7gk 9a7? Jawbni 3mair 9a7?

M7md; la mb 9a7 5awool! Mb 9a7! 5ala9 hal shay mstwi mnzman w mb eydh elrayal. Lazm tbt3doon 3n b3'6 w matkbroon elsalfh !

3afra; m7md I'm confused , how can he be engaged w w laish y'39boonh!

3mair; l2nh 7'6rthm ma yt5yloon eny akoon wyaha mthl ma enty ya 3afra ma tt5ylain. The fact that O&K are lovers is not possible to them. 5awla is just my cousins and that's all. She can't be more or less. Hatha 8anoon mama , ma tba 5awla, ma tba O&K!

5awla; omg 3mair I can't take in all of this I can't!

3mair; ylsi 5awool w breathe


5awla; leave me 3mair , u can't ask me to sit down and breathe because u just ruined my whole life. U just broke a dream that I've been wanting my whole life. Its like You just told me that I can't be breathe normally because ur not gonna be with me.

3mair; 7awlt a'3yr rayha 5awla walla el3a'6eem 7awlt ! Mb ra'6ya w umch b3d w ubooch w 5alch w 3mamch. Elkl raf'6 ! Amoot w a3rf laish bs malna n9eeb 7bebti , malna n9eeb.

I kissed her head and she cried even more.

5awla; just go 3mair just go , I wish u happiness.

3mair; bachr msafr ..

5awla; too9l blslama w allah ywfgk

She looked at 3afra

5awla; 3afoor aba argd wadeeni my room

3afra came close to 5awla and she held her hand

3afra; yalla t3ali

I looked at 5awla

3mair; ttm95rain 5awla! Btrgden?

5awla; hayh brgd can u just leave?

3mair; don't worry ill be leaving for a long time

I came close to her , I placed my head on her shoulders

I whispered

3mair; a7bch 5awla

And I kissed her neck before leaving.


--

*5awla*

He just told me the thing that I've always wanted to hear.

I can't let him go

I can't

5awla; 3 ma ir

He turned around and I ran to him , I hugged him a tight hug and I started crying all over again.

5awla; ill miss u 3mair ill miss u :(

He held my face and he looked into my eyes.

3mair; take care enzen 7bebti , lat5len 7d yz3lch w y9y7ch wna mb mawjood. I might take a long time studying there and illl come back married to someone. I know its hard but what can I say 5awool. Forget me as a lover , I don't deserve you , u need someone better.

5awla; wna b3d a7bk , I don't wanna think about it.

He smiled , a tired smile
I looked down and he kissed my eyes and nose.

3mair; m7md ehtm feeha enzen

M7md; 5awla e5ti 3mair , latw9eeni 3laiha

3mair; wnti 3afoor mb kl shwei tl3wzeenha

3afra; enshallah :)

Fdaith walla, he's so caring w awal mrh 3afoor doesn't argue. I feel broken mn da5l that were not meant to be but ill be happy for him. I promise ill not be the bitch that will ruin his marriage and his life.
I promise. I promise.

3mair; have a good night


And with that he left me ...

24 February 2012

O&K 6

3afra; omg 7mood she just fell walla!!!

I quickly started running like crazy, I don't know what happened to this girl! She goes insane when she hears his name. He's a bad influence and not a guy that she deserves to be with.

I placed her head on my knees and I kept shaking her , begging her to wake up and stop acting!

3afra; 5awool shu feech! Omg :(

I started crying , it was really scary and I had no idea what to do.

M7md came by and he freaked out! The girl just fainted for the first time ever!

M7md; 3afoor ana byeeb may ok?

3afra; hurry hurry!!!!

M7md was running like crazy and I kept placing my hands all over 5awools face, she was moving her head shwei w she looked at me and then closed her eyes again

3afra; tsm3eni 5awla?

5awla; hmmm

3afra; what happened to u hun! 5wfteeni

She got up and sat down next to me

Her head was on my shoulders, she couldn't take control. She seemed more than drunk and really confused.

5awla; what happened 3afra?!

3afra; idk 7bebti u just blacked out

5awla; ooh my head a7s bynfjr

M7md came with the water and he handed it to 5awool.

5awla; thnx
M7md smiled and 5awla smiled back

M7md; feeling ok?

5awla; take me to bed u guyz! I don't feel like talking..

3afra; ok 7ayati yalla nshi!

I gave her my hand and she grabbed it, I took her to her room
6y7tha 3l bed w l7ftha w 6l3t!

What happened today was over way way over!

M7md was standing br3 , waiting for me I guess

I gave him a sad look and he hugged me.

3afra; laish che yals yswi feeha 7mod :( walla 7ram kasra 5a6ri wayd! Tmoot feh t7bh w hoo mb m3brnha! Y3ne shu mayshoof 7ubha ! N7na mla7'6een hoo ahbal shu!

M7md; calm down 3afoor

He kissed my head and we sat down on the couch.

M7md; u can't blame 3mair , u know they don't belong together

3afra; SO, he has to stay away! NOT INVITE HER HERE and crush her heart!

M7md; allah yhdeh bs , '6ay3

3afra; I don't fucking care, she's my everything and I care about her A LOT!

M7md; I know 3afoor

3afra; laish a7s fe shay mb yals t5brni eyah, I don't understand him! Laish ygrbha mnh w 3gb yb3dha w 3gb che tnjr7 elensanah

M7md; la la mafee shay! Shu bykoon fee y3ne :D

3afra; I don't know , u tell me :)

M7md; wanna get some dinner? Feeling hungry :)

3afra; '3ayyer elsalfh bs ill find out soon 7mood

M7md; I'm telling u mafe shay 3afra!

He stood up and walked ahead.
I gave him a look -.- and walked after him.

---

*3mair*

When I got out of the room , I saw no one so I guessed they all headed outside.
I spent a lot of time , thinking about what happened and what I'm supposed to do, I had no idea what they were doing br3 wla shu mstwi!
I just lokced myself inside the room

I've talked to shamma, she's been really sweet lately. I feel so bad for having these feelings which are not for her.
I have to be loyal atleast to my soon to be wife.
Everything is just really complicated, I decided to go out and see what's going on.
I spotted 3afor and 7mood

3mair; wain?

M7md; dinner , coming?

3mair: hmm la2 ,, wain ,,

And when I was about to continue

3afra; leave the girl alone would u? Stop playing with her its really not fair!

3mair; what the fuck ! Shu tgoolen enty! Aba arms bnt 3amty

3afra; bnt 3amtk fee 7dood bainkm! Mb walla kl shwei t7s'sha b shay w tksr 5a6rha

3mair; don't make me go angry 3afra

M7md; let's go 3afoor

They left me alone , making me really angry.

I wondered wain kanat wla shu sawat after I ordered her to leave
Akeed 39bt w ksrt eldnya. I sat on the couch upstairs and watched some tv.

Every channel was utterly BORING!
I couldn't handle the boredom , I stood up to go to the kitchen bs she appeared out of no where.

I looked down w she looked the other way, I took small steps closer to her.
She took small steps back

3mair; please 5awool

5awla; leave me alone

3mair; I'm sorry

5awla; u don't mean it

3mair; I promise I do

5awla; u always SAY IT OK ALWAYS! And u hurt me even worse the next day

Bdat t9ar5 w tyn mthl doom!
I grabbed her into my arm and I kissed her head

3mair; mmkn thdeen?

5awla; la2 3mair la2:( I'm sick of u being such an ass about everything! What do u want from me ha what!

I raised her head and looked into her eyes , she was about to tear up but I kissed her small eyes
She hugged me and she let it go as always

She forgives me bsr3h l2nh t5af ill go and never ask about her
But I won't do that
How can someone forget his everything?
She's the reason I'm breathing now , she makes life seem so simple and easy when I'm around her. She makes everything seem much more fun and exciting.

I kissed her cheeks and her smile grew wider.
I don't wanna do this bs walla I can't control myself.
I can't stay away from her but ill do soon so maybe things will change afterwards , maybe just maybe ill know how to live without her being so close to me

5awla; wain 3afoor?

3mair; saraw eyebon dinner

5awla; good because I'm really hungry

I looked into her eyes and I felt the need to tell her about shamma.

She has to know because shell get to know sooner or later ..
Maybe not now! I don't wanna ruin this beach trip for her.

5awla; this day is so ruined! Tommorow will be a good one 9a7?

3mair; YUp t3rfeen shu 5awool, I ordered a ship like a really BIG boat w shay rooms w che so well gonna sleep for 1 day w 3gb bnrd elbeach house!

5awla; omg LOVE it ! Its gonna be fun

3mair; yup ;)

We both smiled and she hugged me.

5awla; 3mair , how about a movie fe ur room

3mair; enzen yalla t3ali

She started running towards my room and singing.
She was really happy and I loved that.

She chose a movie and she sat on the bed , I sat next to her and she closed the blinds

3mair; RULES for 5awool

5awla; stop it -.-"!

I laughed and she did a goofy face

3mair; 1. NO crying
            2. NO screaming
            3. NO avoiding 3mair w tndmjain fl movie -.-

5awla; haha u talk a lot u know that-.- 3ad especially fl cinema I nEed to place my hands on ur mouth and what u do -.- keep kissing it and biting it so I let go

I gave her an angel face and she threw the pillow on me.

3mair; yalla enthbri fe mkanch bda elmovie

5awla; let's cuddle babe

She laughed at that and I gave her ";)"

I went close to her I grabbed her body from the black and placed my neck on her shoulder

She was stuck with me now
I felt the tension but she tried to keep it coool
I loved that I made her nervous.

She kept moving and moving , trying to let go of my grip

I kissed her neck and she stopped, she was shocked.

--

*5awla*

He kissed my neck and I couldn't even move now.
Its not like its the first time he kisses me but this kiss was different
I felt that it was passionate w che I loved the feeling that came afterwards

Now I gave him my face I moved my whole body and faced him

I played with his hair and his face

I tried going close even more. He grabbed my body stronger w che he smiled while I played with his hair and his hot face.

5awla; 3mair

3mair; hmm

5awla; 7bait?

He looked at me in a serious way and looked into my eyes. I was nervous about his answer, I wished it to be " NO " or " Yes " but the yes part should belong to me.
I want his heart , I want him for me.
I kept denying the fact that I don't like him the way they think I do
But who am I kidding?
A3shgh , I can't stop thinking about him , I can't even do a thing without his presence. I need him to lead , to show me the right path.

5awla; haa

He moved even closer to me , he grabbed my face and he was about to do it
His breath all over my face , his smell , his strong hands , his built body, his lips
I was about to have this incredible feeling but..

3afra; 5AWOOOL! 3MAAAIR! Were here!

I was about to leave , to just run away before 3afra sees this
But he held my hand and he pushed me back closer.

5awla; 3mair leave me.

3mair; 5awla t3ban , m7tajnch bs I can't! I can't fucking do this

5awla; give me one reasom 3mair :( why cant we be like anyone else.

He gave me a kiss on the cheeks

3mair; I need to tell u something

5awla; I know ! U need to! Fe shay 3mair

3mair; yup

He kissed my head and my small nose

I held his hand closer to my heart

5awla; 3mair a7s a7...

But he placed his thumb on my lips
Ma 5alani agoolha!

3mair; t9b7en 3la 5air 5awla.

---
*3mair*

I went outside my room w srt br3 atmsha 3l b7r

El9ra7ah ely swaaitah kan '3abi w selfish

Lazm bs ab3d 3nha w enshallah he bt3rf broo7ha by ahlha

I called shamma , telling her that I would be returning tommorow.

Trrrn trrrrrn trrrrn trrrn

Shamma; halla 7ayati

3mair; halla , agool shamma bachr rad ana tra so if u wanna go shopping or something ..

Shamma; allah 9dg 3ad I reallly do miss you <3 ma3ndi 9abr kl 7d y3rf 3na !

Ans I just laughed .. A fake fake laugh ..

17 February 2012

O&K 5

*5awla*

I woke up feeling really dizzy and sleepy
I couldn't sleep last night
3mair changed a lot , he's not the same anymore
If he was 3mair that I knew several years ago then he would never ever leave me while I'm crying alone at night.
What he did made me realize that this statement " people change " is absolutely true. They do change even ur close ones.

Mama; 7beebti 5awool bsr3h 5l9i aklch b3d shway bayoon yshloonch.

5awla; t9dgen mama I doont feel like going anymore

Mama; 6aa3 laish! It will be fun 7ayati.

5awla; I hope so

I couldn't eat either , how will I spend 3 days with him! It will be like 3 years.
I can't look at him , I can't even speak to him.
If he's gonna do this to me and not care about me then I won't care either.

BEEP BEEP

Mama; yalla they're here

My heart literally like stopped for 1 second ! I don't wanna go , I don't wanna see him!

Mama; 5awool yalla shu feech , elbshkara wadat shn6ch

When I was about to stand up and head outisde , he came in.

I paused for 15 seconds or more just looking at him
He looked at me , his eyes said it all
I knew he was sorry , he looked devestated more than me b3d


Ahh 3mair just tell me whats going on

Mama noticed that weird tension , sometimes I feel that she dislike the strong relationship that we have or HAD.

Mama; ahlain 3mair

He came close to her w kissed her head

3mair; halla 3amoo

Mama; 3yal wain m7md w 3fra?

3mair; hmm saraw n7n bnl7ghm

I can see that my mom was disappointed , she doesn't want me to stay alone with me , I felt it.

3mair; yalla 5awla?

I guess he noticed it too.

He offered his hand and my mom waited for my reaction
I held his hand , I'm not gonna do what she expects me to do w after all he's my cousin, she has to respect that.
I don't know if I'm making sense a9ln, m7md is my cousin too but we have boundaries but with 3mair nothing makes sense I guess. Aaah I just need to stop thinking about it

3mair; ma3a elslamah

Mama; allah y7f'6km :) 5awool mama 3gb call me

5awla; enshallah

My mom left and went upstairs

He pulled me into a hug and kissed my head

I looked at him with a sharp expression
I'm not gonna be ok with this anymore

5awla; don't expect me to forgive you

I left him and started heading to the car

I heard his usual " UFF "

3mair is such an angry guy, he gets angry on silly things or can I say mostly everything ?

I sat at the back , waiting for him.

He came and gave me a smirk

3mair; 7ta ma bteelsen jdam 5awool?

I ignored him and started texting

To; 3afoor

*Im gonna kill you! Leaving me alone with him!

From; 3afoor

*i thought ur gonna love it ?! Balach?

To; 3afoor

*mb wagth , bgoolch hnak

He started driving the car, it was like this awkward silence.

3mair: tbain shay mn elm76h

He looked at me through the mirror

I tried ignoring him but god n'6rth:s

3mair: shklii draaiwlch elhndi?

I laughed ! Hahahah mat5yll y3nee

5awla; I guess you are

3mair: 5awool 3shani t3ali jdam

5awla: what u did was shocking 3mair :s knt m7tajtnk w twdrni? Is that how u treat me?

3mair; bs mabach tt3lgain feeni

I was not only shocked now but BROKEN , how can he say this!

3mair: ymkn asafr 5awla w a6wl ,,,

What to say?
I started crying again so now he's planning to leave me?!

3mair; bdrs br3 5awool

5awla; BS! Stop talking 3mair stop! Just drive

3mair: calm down bnoo9l soon

5awla; no take me *sniffs* back home :(!!!!!!

3mair; 5awool shu tgoolen just breathe

He came and sat right next to me
Pulling me into his arms and kissing my head

I hugged him really tight and closed my eyes



*3mair*

Shu agoolch 5awool? My life is already planned for me.
I hate it and I don't think ur gonna like it either.

I don't want to give you hopes about anything. I love you , I really do but were not meant to be.
No one likes us together even our own parents, I don't know shu elreason but its just not possible.

3mair; 7yati enty mmkn twgfeen 9ya7 !

5awla; 3mair just take me to the beach! I need to relax

3mair; sorry walla ma b'3ait a'6aygch

5awla; 3adi bs mta ur going

3mair; next week youm el5mees

5awla; omg 3mair its too soon

3mair; can we not think about it now?

5awla; enzeeen!! 3mairrrrrr

3mair: shuu

5awla; nothing , I just love saying ur name

I looked at her , at this small cute creauture.
She's been my everything, I try to stay away from her because I know ill end up breaking her heart.
I'm not her hero anymore , I used to be.
I'm just an ass. I make her get attached to me and then she looses me.

I don't know if she likes me the way I do but I feel it.

She was trying to wipe her tears, she was smiling right now.

I smiled back. I gave her a pat on the head and played with her hair.

5awla; stop it -.-

She grabbed my hand

I laughed because of her messy hair.

5awla; ur so annoying

3mair; I'm a teaser u know that

*5awla*

3mair; I'm a teaser u know that

I felt like hugging him , well ur like the best teaser 3mair.
I adore u

5awla; yalla goom soog

3mair; t3ali ylsi jdam yalla:@

5awla; ok ok -.- as u insist

--

We arrived at the beach , I was so excited. I threw my shoes in the air and rushed towards the water.

It felt amazing, the water touching my feet every 2 seconds.
3afra came by, she gave me a side hug.

3afra; I miss uuuuu

5awla; chthaba -.-

3afra; walla I do

5awla; well I miss you too

I gave her a tight hug and she smiled.

She's my bestfriend y3ne we fight but we love each other no matter what.
She can be annoying and mean but that's 3afoor and I accept it.

3afra; yalla t3ali braweech our room!

5awla; OUR room! NO way! I need my own room -.-

3afra; aaayh -,- let's share a room ! It will be fun

5awla; laa 3afoor :( I'm a neat freak and ur like the most messy girl ever.

3afra; aa5 -.- I knoww lw I shared a room wyach I would feel sick. Like everything will be super clean and neat.

I laughed at her comment but that's me :)

5awla; enzeen emshi wyay , aba ashoof our beach house.

We started walking slowly towards the house , it would be a long walk because the beach is not that close.

3afra; shu mstwi 5awool

5awla; I don't know 3afra, please lat76en 3lai now.

3afra; shu gooly , I know I'm a meanii bs that's for ur own good

5awla; what do u mean

3afra; don't u see it 5awla, if u ever think about loving him che a7s hell break ur heart. They say he's a player.

5awla; I don't love him 3afra w b3dian 3mair is not a player!

3afra; how do u know?

5awla; I know! I don't see him talking to girls w 7alah

3afra; god 5awool y3ne he would never come to u and say " ooh 5awool hay 7bebti bseer brmsha wla b6l3a wyaha "

What she said made my heart ache , but what if I fall inlove bdoon ma7ss, I already have these mixed feeelings. Aah I know what she's saying is true. I know 3mair my innocent cousin
I don't know 3mair when he's not with his family.

We grew up w che ebt3dna shway 3n b3'6
I don't know his secrets now like before.

---

*3mair*

M7md; t9dg 3mair! I'm hating this weather, let's head inisde , play some racing games. I miss these days ya5ii

3mair; ana fe 7alah 7mood wnth fe 7alah

M7md; latgooly a7eenh tfkr feha! 5ala9 3mair lazm tnsaha. Mb mn n9eebk

3mair; a7bha walla el3'6eem a7bha

I started throwing stuff and breaking glasses. It made me furious and really angry :s

m7md came and grabbed my hand , he pushed me to the door and started shouting , saying things that I couldn't understand because I was just tired.

M7md; 5ALA9 3MAIR! ENSA!

3mair; lw agdr bs ...

I knelt down and sat on the floor, placing my head between my legs.
I've been tired lately, I just need to sit down alone and think.

3mair; t3ban 7mood mb mrtaa7! Maba '3airha.

M7md; ur engaged dude , 5ala9! A9ln yaytna hni broo7ha '3l6a.

3mair; don't remind me.

M7md; 5ala9 3mair ! Stand up , be a man , and face it. La t3lgha feek tra walla 5awool ma tstaahl

3mair; gltlha 3n america bs ma gltlha 3n shamma

M7md; ma3rf shagoolk , mw8fk 93b! '3l6a kbeera yaybnha hni ! This is just too painful , for u and her

My fone suddenly started ringing

shamma's name appeared on my screen.

M7md; its not fair to her b3d

2ashar 3la my fone w 6al3ni

M7md: hay 56ebtk a7enh w btstwi 7rmtk 3mair

3afra; WERE HERE

I raised my head and looked at her , she was worried , scanning the place and trying to acknowledge what had happen.

She saw me sitting on the floor and she rushed next to me

5awla; 3mair shu feek

M7md gave me a look.

3mair; mafeni shay

I stood up and went to the bathroom. I just need to stay away from her not be with her.

--
*5awla*

5awla; 7mood , 3mair balah?!

M7md; mafeeh shay bs mdw5 shwei

5awla; twni knt wyah w he was ok

M7md; la mafeeh shay! Yalla t3ali 5lna nseer enshoof elrooms w we order dinner

5awla; no leave me , ill wait for him.

M7md; 5awool t3ali

3afra; ya 5awool youm by6l3 rmseeh

5awla; NO! He's freakin tired ! I don't know what's wrong with him! I'm feeling his pain because I can see it in his eyes. He's miserable ! Don't u see it :@ what kind of cousins are you?!

I started shouting and tearing up

3afra came and hugged me

M7md; bsch 9yaa7 w m3anah 5awool 3shanh! You're killing yourself

5awla; shu y59k haa shu y59k :(

3mair; 5awla eskti w e6l3i!

He said that while he was in the bathroom! Why is he doing this:s wtf is wrong with him!

I stood up , headed to the bathroom door and started knocking

5awla; OPEN THE DOOR!

3mair; 5awla rw7i

5awla; 3mair please open:( I'm seriously worried

3mair; 5awla RW7I , ma b3eed kalami

5awla; akrhk t3rf shu y3ne akrhk! 1 min ur ok and the other min ur an ass! I hate u.

I kicked the door and started running outside

I heard 3afra and m7md yelling , ordering me to come back but suddenly everything was black.

12 February 2012

O&K 4

5awla; aaayh! 3mair!

He pushed her inside and placed his hands on her mouth

3mair; shh 5awool balach!

Khawla; wtf are u doing

She whispered

3mair: esm3i, first ur lipstick is all over my hand , second, I don't just ignore when I see u crying w THIRD stop screaming

5awla; god 3mair just open the door and let us leave! Its really hot in here

3mair; no 5awla , shoofi shu bswi

3mair took a seat next to the sink and faced 5awla for a good explanation

5awla started laughing because of 3mair's yalsah and serious face

5awla; don't make me splash water all over u

3mair; I dare u , lw enty bnt ubooch

5awla; 3maiiiiiiirrrr ! The water is all here

3mair; do it

5awla; I'm serious 3mair

3mair; I'm serious too

When 5awla was about to press on the thing but 3mair quickly jumped off , grabbed her hand and pushed her to the wall
He held the water splasher and splashed it all on her

She started laughing so hard that her eyes were tearing

5awla; 3mair!

Trying to talk

5awla; that was so not funny!

3mair; ya I get it , that's why ur laughing so hard

5awla; I feel drunk! Kaif b6l3! 3maaair:(

3mair; stop whinning , u always whine -.-

5awla; I know u love it

3mair; ooh ya I'm so enjoying it :)

5awla went next to 3mair and layed on him
Placing her thin body on his body for control

She played with his nose

5awla; I hate u

3mair; u seem drunk

5awla couldn't even stand properly , that much laughing made her go crazy

She was laying on him and he held her so she don't loose control all of the sudden

3mair; 5awool balach:s

5awla; I don't know , carry me

3mair; u should never challenge me , lesson learned

5awla; uff 3mair I feel like kicking u !

3mair laughed and carried 5awla like a puppy
Her legs were in the air and she was facing his back

5awla; OMG 3mair nzlni mb che! U should be more romantic dude

3mair; I like it this way

5awla; so seriously ur gonna get me out of here , wet and carried like a dog!

3mair; 5awool I'm still mad at you for not sharing that thing with me

Khawla just paused for a second and stoped moving

She placed her hands around his neck and tried to come down
Hald of her stomach were on 3mair's shoulder

She was suffering but enjoyed it as well
That's the spriit that 3mair brings.

5awla; I have nothing to say

3mair kissed 5awla's arm and nod

3mair; kaifch , we should get out of here!

5awla; plz 3mair! Maba a6l3 che f'6ee7a ! W maba ajabl 3afoor! I just fought with her

3mair; oops bs ur gonna be with her for 4 days!

5awla; and why that:s

3mair; well as a surprise , I planned that we should all go to the beach house tommorow! It would be great! Good old days! Me u 3afra 7mood

5awla; REALLY! I love it! I miss the beeach house!!! I feel like dancing now , if u put me down y3ne

3mair; ya thought that ud love it

5awla; 3mair ur amazing
She kissed his neck and he smiled

3mair opened the door and headed to the small room that leads to the back dooor

5awla was finally off's 3mair shoulders!

She pulled her hair up and borrowed a sweater from that small room before leaving.

That sweater was 3afra's but she thought that 3afra won't mind after all!

*Khawla*

We got into 3mair's car and we were heading to nowhere :s!
He was just driving while mumbling songs I guess

Khawla; talk .... It feels weird

3mair; so? U ready for bachr?

Khawla; hmm how about we go over to my house and do my bag because che ma3rf shu 2a5th

3mair; enzeeen I need to lay down b3d !

Khawla; laish shu feek?

3mair; ta3baaan

Khawla; ok let me drive , switch

3mair; yalla ..

We switched places and he pulled his chair way back

He seemed really tireed so I don't know what happened fj2a.

We got into the car, he held his fone for a couple of minutes
And then BOOOM " moody 3mair " .

Aaaaah

All these thoughts where in my head

We finally reached hom , I went upstairs and he headed to the kitchen

I sat down with my bag infornt of my closet
Taking in anything suitable for water and the beach.

He came in with a coke can

He layed on my bad , opened the tv and watched some lame news.

5awla; so ure not gonna help?

He started laughing

3mair; help u in what 5awool

5awla; nothing I guess :)

He grabbed a pillow and throwed it at me


5awla; and why that -.- wats wrong with u ?!

3mair; nothing , ur just annoying

I stood up , grabbed that pillow , and looked at him

5awla; ana annoying ?

He was looking at the tv and did a nod

5awla; NO look at me and say It ! See what will happen 3gb

3mair; so ure doing it again haa , do u want me to remind u about the bathroom incident

I quickly started running and jumped on him on the bed

I was sitting right on his stomach with a goofy smile

He looked surprised but he didn't react the way I expected

He just stared at me with a smile too, it was really weird and akward.

5awla; shuu -_-"

3mair; idk uve change , my small tiny 5awla grew up

5awla; t7sees time !

I was touched and I was embarassed by the way he looked at me but as always 5awla has to ignore and change the subject

I don't like to have these feelings with 3mair , its like a crime to feel loved by him because of EVERYONE.

I sat right next to him on bed

3mair; sitting on my stomach felt better

5awla; shut up

I placed my head on his shoulders and watched a movie together

It was so calm and peaceful. I didn't want anything to ruin this great moment
I miss his presence so much that I need him with me now more than ever.

The movie was over and I felt so sleepy

I held his arms and kissed his cheek

3mair; its time to leave ..

My face was so close to his , I was really sleepy and I had no idea about what was I saying or doing

5awla; no 3mair stay with me

I kissed his nose and I looked into his eyes

He held me close to him

3mair; I have to 5awool

5awla; please 3mair bs today

He just looked at me and that made me quickly cry

I need him that's all

3mair; aayh ayyh la mb chee 3ad

He wiped my tears and kissed my eyes

5awla; u don't understand 3mair , no one does. I've been feeling lonely and u don't even ask about me. U just call in the morning and before u sleep. I feel that we have this distance and I hate it!

3mair; enzen b3dain bnrms bs now sleep

5awla; uff 3mair esm3ni , I can't do anything without u! I can't defend myself :s I when someone comes up to me and do something I just stand there like an idiot and ill be like " where is 3mair "

3mair; 5awool u know that I can't be always with u in every step u take.

5awla; but I know u want to

3mair; but I can't and things changed, we grew up , we got different lives , we take different paths

5awla; ufffff

I can't stop crying jdamh and he's not even being supportive. I'm embarassed

5awla; u can go

3mair; I think I should


He got up and left.

That made me want to scream and kill myslef
What's wrong with this guy

One minute he's ok and the other minute he's an ass.

I spent the whole night crying and crying for hours.

He didn't even call or text

I won't call either.

04 February 2012

O&K 3

3afra; I don't know about the heels ..

5awla; SHU! Mb 7lween :o?

3afra; no they look super amazing but UR GONNA BLOW THEIR MINDS! U look too sexy , I wish I was gay :p

5awla laughed so hard at her cousin! That comment made her feel really confident and strong. She wanted to look sexy and different. She likes being beautiful, u know 5awla isn't the prettiest and not the ugliest.
She's average
Chocolate brown hair
A body to die for
Big brown eyes
Sharp nose
Thin lips
That's 5awla. Some might envy her and others might not even like her.
5awla has always been that shy girl. Kl hamha drastha w her family, she has not been inlove neither interested in guys.
She's normal which is hard to find these days ...

3afra; yalla were done! Bnseer wya goom umch or alone

5awla; I prefer alone.

3afra; same. 5baal time fl syarah shwei ;)

5awla; ur crazy

3afra; ALWAYS :p

5awla; omg its 7;30 were so late yalla!
---

@ Yadoo's for dinner

5awla and 3afra took small steps toward the main door..

5awla; yalla 3afoor u go first!

3afra; la walla! W laish ana! U GO

5awla; u know ast7i w mt25reen! Akeed kl 7d yals w n7n bndsh che ! F'6ee7a!

3afra; enzen shkli zain?!

5awla; hayh hayh wayd zain t5bleen yalla dshi!

3afra; m9l7a time mthln :O! Enzen! Dshii 3gbii !

5awla; la 3afoor maba :( bdsh wyach yalla

3afra; were so lame , just remember that :D

3afra got in and quickly 5awla did too, everyone was sitting on the diner table with a big smile.
When they got in , all eyes on them. It felt so weird
It made 5awla shiver mn elfashla
She hates these situations!

Her eyes were looking for 3mair , he was still not there.

3afra went and kissed her grandma's head while saying "hi" to every person on the table.

5awla just stood there , scanning the big room with her eyes.
Fj2a 7asat enh elkl y6al3ha so she woke up and headed to her spot on the table.
She sat next to 3afra and was lost in her thoughts.

*Khawla*

Uff 3mair! Doom mt25r, its him
3mair alx is always late DUH

I didn't want to say hi to anyone
I kissed 3mati w my grandma but ignored all the brats and dudes

They were all talking and enjoying their time while I was thinking about my selfish cousin!
I hate it when he's late.

---

Everbody was talking , catching up with one another.
Fj2a 3mair comes in with m7md.

His eyes spotted 5awla , he smiled and she did too

5awla looked back at her plate l2nh ma tabi t7s's elnass enh 5ala9 3mair came , 5awla will CHEER UP!

Well , maybe its true but I know people. They think what they want to think not what is true and real.

3mair; sorry ya jma3a elsmoo7a , bs 7mood nsa bookah fl bait fa e6raaina enh enrd

Yadooh; la 3adi 7beebi , t3aal eeyls w et3sha wyana

3mair ; yalla kani...

3mair took a seat next to 5awla as usual and 5awla felt more than happy!
She finally gets to see him.

M7md took a seat next to yadooh and chatted with her
3afra was busy with dana
Others were still catching up on what happened lately

3mair and 5awla had their own eye conversation.

3mair; m7lwaa ele5t

He whispered

5awla; mnzmaan 7lwa broo

She whisepered back

3mair; th8aa th8aa !

5awla; bnt rashed alx b3d shu!

3mair laughed and 5awla smiled.
 They kept whispering stuff to each other and laughed at the silliest thing
They didn't feel the presence of others , it was just 3mair and 5awla.

After the dinner, they headed to the meelas!
There was this big tv and huge couches.

5awla sat next to 3afra and dana.

Some ate sweets and others drank juices.

Dana; aren't they hot 5awool:(! I want them

5awla; d5eeelch plz 3eedi, hot?!

Dana; 6aa3 ana arms 5awla alx ely ma3ndha thoo8 a9ln! Anyways! 3afoor :'( walla b9ee7

5awla; 3ndi thoo8 enzen! A7la wa7d fl meels hni , 3mair!

Dana: 3aaad 3maair! AHH 89a thanya ! Ubo elhotness hal ensan

5awla; yup! That's right !

Dana; 5awool lw ma tbainh 36eeni eyah

5awla hesitated , what would she reply! Yes, she gets jelous when they talk about him but he's not hers :s!

She smiled

5awla; haha dano! 7laalch enzen ana shlii

3afra; enty shlch?! 5awool plz '67kteni w mafeeni '67kh! Enty tt7sbain 3mair mlkch

5awla: ana? 3afra that was so mean.

Dana; well that was kinda true 5awool

5awla; no:s! Uff u don't understand anything!

Dana; 9dg klaamha, were even scared to talk to 3mair , 5ayfeen hal shay y'6aygch

5awla; omg what are u saying! He's not my cousin , he's yourz b3d. I have no right to do this

3afra; but u do it bdoon ma t7seen 5awool

5awla; I have to go

5awla left, her cousin's words were humiliating.

*Khawla*
I'm not that selfish
Yes , me and 3mair have this great connection bs hatha mb y3ne enh ana m5lyh 3mair 7gii!
They are crazy wallah!

I got into the bathroom and locked the door behind me.
Maybe ana w 3mair msbbeen mshaakl 7g kl 7d
They all hate us
They all don't like how were close
They're all against us

7aram elw7dh tt3lg fe her cousin?
They expect me to love him more than a cousin?!
What do they want!
I don't see 3mair as anything else ! He's my cousin
My cousin that used to protect me and make me strong.

I love him l2nh yfhmni w ystw3bni bsr3h

Yes , I'm close with 3afra but sometimes I feel that she's always against me
3mair has always been there for me no matter what!
He's a friend , a true one.

A knock on the bathroom door made me shake.
Who could it be?!


3mair; 5awool?

It was him

5awla; halla 3mair

I tried not to show that I was crying or something bad happened

3mair; fchi elbab

5awla; yalla shwei w b6l3

3mair; la 5awool fchi elbab

I wiped my tears , washed my face , 3dlt sh3rii w mlabsi
W b6lt elbaab

I looked scary I bet because he laughed !

5awla; mafe shay y'67k 3mair -.-

I was going to leave but he took me inside the bathroom and locked the door.

03 February 2012

O&K 2

*2012*

:D

3afra; this dinner is really important 5awla, wake up! We need to get a dress :D!

5awla; omg 3afoor shgad t7neen! Ur 18 but I feel like ur still 10 -_+"

3afra; NSHI! Walla bt7wl to the mad 3afoor ! Not a nice picture :)

5awla; aaa5! Its not like I really wanna be in this dinner ! U know I hate them...

3afra; chub:O they're ur cuzns! RESPECT girl

5awla; my cuzns who I don't really know , who comes every dec?! Really?!

3afra; some of them are even hot :o

5awla; d5eelch bs , goomy 5lni aseer atsb7 w bn6l3

3afra; yay! Ill wait for u outisde !

I don't even know what's so important mn hal dinner ! Wjoodi hnaak ma byswi shay! All they do is talk about silly stufff ! :s

^ that is what 5awla thought.
She got dressed , applied soft makeup and rushed to the car.

Yes, she's LEGAL now! 18 ~

3afra; yalla sh'3li elsyarh wain sr7ti?!

5awla; t3rfen 3afor , sometimes I wish I could go back in time where I was 8 w akbr hamii elle3b

3afra; hahahahah akbr hamch elle3b ha? Go die kan akbr hamch hal 3mair

5awla; I miss him t9dgen , I want us to be 5awla the shortie and 3mair the teasy !

3afra; ay u miiss him! U talk 24-7 bbm , he calls u every morning!

5awla; but I miss seing him!

3afra; 7beebti u see him every friday

5awla; u don't get it

3afra; no I don't get it because u know 3mair is not a kid anymore! He's 20 now 5awool , he grew up and he changed.

5awla; what do u mean he changed?

3afra; I mean enh fe ashya2 a7eenh aham mn enh yshoofch kl youm wla yl3wzch kl dgeegh

The words that 3afra said were true. 3mair changed but she still didn't. She's so innocent that she excepts everything to be too, she is used to his presence around her.
Tears were going to slightly fall on khawla's cheek , she's wasn't strong at all! What made her strong was 3mair but it seems like he doesn't care now.

3afra; ur fone is vibrating khawool, ur daily morning call :D I'm sure that would make u smile and cheer up now!

Khawla saw 3mair's name appearing on her screen , she quickly picked it up.

3mair; 9abaa7 el5airr

5awla; gm

3mair; wow that was lame, shu feech?

5awla; mafeni shay

3mair; 5awool I'm 3mair

5awla; ok I know!

3mair; then golyly shu feech?!

5awla; I need u

Khawla started slowly crying on the fone while 3afra looked really shocked. 3afra sometimes felt that 5awla is into 3mair but how come? When they've been childhood friends. She had doubts about 5awla's feelings but she also never had the courage to ask her.

3mair; 5awool balach! Yalsa t39beni mno m'6aygnch!

5alwa; enth 3mair enth!

3mair; esm3i wagfi 9ya7 ok? W elyoum bneels w bnrms

5awla; ok

3mair; u know I'm always here 5awool , just a fonecall and ill be here

5awla; I know

Khawla smiled but didn't feel good at all.

3mair; w b3dain I have a surprise for you!!!!

5awla; SHU:O u know I love surprises!

3mair; ull have to wait then:$

5awla; okay!! I'm excited to c u

3mair; same ! Yalla mb t'6aygain! Enzeen 3mry?

5awla; enshallah:$

3mair; bye!

5awla; byeeee ;*

3afoor; yalla mmkn nt7rk now?! We've been in the car for half an hour

5awla; LETS GO!!!!!

3afoor; w 5awool is back :D

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@ the mall!

Khawla ana 3afra were walking side by side , entering each store , trying to find the perfect dress!

When they enetered bloomingdales, one dress blew 5awla's mind away,,,

5awla; omg 3afoor look at that! Orange b3d , 3mair's favorite color!

3afra; ya it looks amazing! U should take it! Perfect size b3d

5awla; 3mair will love it haha

3afra; 5awool sa3at a7s ur so obsessed with 3mair:s who cares if 3mair loved or hated the color!

5awla; bsmllah 3afoor balach:p let me go try it on

As usual, 5awla ignored 3afraa !

*Khawla point of view*

I don't know why they keep asking me this question :s! Am I too obsessed? I don't think so.
Am just too close to him , he's been my everything from the age of 4 !
How come they don't like our relationship, especially 3afoor. She thinks I'm so into him but I don't like him in that eww way

Am just his special cuzn !

Ma yfhmoon shu!
They make me so angry and out of control when they say this!

Well, I tried on my dress and I felt amazing! The color was perfect.

I came out of the fitting room and bought the dress. I ignored 3afra the whole ride home.

She has no right to say what she said, I thought she would understand y3ne chee

Aah I don't even know what I'm thinking or if I'm making sense to myself now. I should forget it w bs



5awla; agool 3afoor,,,

3afra; hmm

5awla; sha5bar m7md , mnzman 3nh

3afra; waayh he's planning to go to american ydrs

5awla ; 9dg:o! Awaaih! Mta 8arar?!

3afra; ams awwnh gal 7g yadooh , I guess bygoolch elyoum:p

5awla; guess so! But 7aram bntwlh 3laih w 3la n'3zath

3afra; hayh walla , 5awool aba macdoo!!

5awla; now bnt3sha wya wayhch wla nsaitay our big dinner tonight

3afra; uff w shu y3ne mrtain bnt3sha

5awla; chub 3afoor! Yalla w9lna , we have to get ready bs3rh! Already mt25ren T_T"

3afra; yup yalla ..

Nzlna mn elsyarah w we headed to my room.

02 February 2012

O&K 1

*2004*

5awla; SHIL EYYDK 3ANI 7MOOD! Agoolk maba aseer :(!

M7md; 5awool wallah bs ! Tra malait... Ana w 3afoor bnrw7 tra

5awla; 3afoor won't! Bttrya 3maair wyay 9a7?!

3afra; 5awool t3ali! Shoofi elal3ab! I want to play:( ymkn ma baye w mama b3d aked yalsa edwrna

M7md; daloo3a 5awla! 3maair is not coming! Were in the park mn 2;00 w now its 3;30

5awla; chub 7mood:( he promised!

M7md; kaifch, yalla 3afoor let's go and play

M7md gave 3afra his hand but he immedietly took it back and laughed! 3afra was angry! M7md ran towards the playing area while 3afra screaming his name ...

5awla laughed at her stupid cousins , she was feeling really sad. Her bestfriend and her cousin, 3mair , still didn't show up.

Suddenly , 3mair came mn wraha

3mair; haa 5awool, laish yalsa hni?!

5awla; la tsthbl 3mair! I'm waiting for u!

3mair; sorry! Hay mama snh tjhz hal cupcake malha :p

5awla; she brought cupcakes:o

3mair; YUP! Ur favorite ;)

5awla; let's go 3yal!!!! I don't feel like playing now

3mair; bs hamch hal ba6en -.-

5awla; 3maair !!!! A9ee7?

3mair; klh wla 9yaa7 5awool !

3mair gave 5awla his hand and they walked together towards their parents. They were having a great day at the park. Everything was calm and peaceful. It was green and fresh air came through.
5awla munched on her cupcakes while 3mair played along with m7md and 3afra w other children in the park. 5awla spotted him and her face turned red. 5awla and 3mair promised each other not to hang along with anyone because they like it to be only them 2 , she doesn't mind 3afra and m7md but other children:o!

As any child , she felt really jelous. 3mair was her property.
She threw the cupcake and she headed toward that girl with the orange dress.

5awla pulled her hair and laughed , she expected 3mair to laugh along but all he did is stare with a shocked face.

5awla; WHAT! She deserves it ...

The girl ran to her parents and 3mair went back to playing , ignoring 5awla.


5awla; ok fine I'm sorry but don't u remember our promise! 3mair when I hang with others u shout at me :( why don't I get to do the same ?! Its unfair.

3mair; ur right bs this is different. She was a baby! A9'3r 3na !

5awla; I don't think that I care.

3mair started laughing so 5awla laughed too.



Khawla , 10 years old at that time. She's known as being so short and thin. T3wdt 3la m95rat 7mood w 3afoor bs she hates it from others. Even though it makes her cry sometimes but the only thing that makes her strong and ignore others is 3mair. He was her brother, friend , cousin , and bestfriend.
3mair, 12 years old at that time. He's so protective of khawla. He doesn't like to share her with anyone. 3mair was young but a brave boy, he had the courage to do anything lajl 3yoon 5awla. She was his sister, friend , cousin, and bestfriend.
Everyone understood how they are very close , especially 7amood and 3afra since they hanged together all the time.

*2007*

Yadoo; 3mair mama , mashalllah kabran w mstwi rayal?! 9aff 3ashr now 9a7!

3mair; 6b3n y3ne shu btm yahl:p !

Yadoo; 5alaa9 m3rsss ! Bndrwlk 3aroos!

Fj2a 5awla appeared ,,,

5awla; who's getting married:o

She smiled to 3mair and he gave her a warm smile

3mair; apparently me :D !

5awla; hahahaha no way! Enth! Mnoo btaa5thk -.-

3mair; mlyoon bnt ttmna wa7d mthlii! Jamaaaal eldnya feeni

5awla; m9dg 3mrhh hatha yadooh!

Yadoo; shu rayk fe 5awool ! Ha 3mair?

They both started laughing!

3mair; yadooh please 3eedi ely glteeh! '67keeni

5awla trying to talk without laughing!

5awla; ana w hatha! 9dg yadooh! Hatha rbee3ii ay raylii!

3mair; batech shootah now wallah! Wayd mswtni zbalah fe 3yoonch

5awla; enthh elfriend el3zeez kaif zbalaaah :o

3mair; wna agool b3d!

3afra came in with her cousin, Dana.

Dana sat right next to 3mair , that made 5awla go crazy!

5awla; aaayh enty! Mkaani goomi! -_-"

3mair; haayh mkaan el7ub b3d shu ;)

5awla; u suck 3mair stop it -.- bs 9dg mkani (a)

3mair stood up and was going to leave

Before leaving ,

3mair; I suck ha? Yalla ylsi broo7ch :D

5awla; ayyh bt5leni broo7i 3mair! Wain ray7?

3mair; atmsha bara3 .. Bteen 5awool?

3afra; ana bayee!

Dana; wna b3d!

5awla; chub entu :@ gal 5awool!

She smiled and she followed 3mair outisde... He was walking so fast! She stopped him and they walked together.

5alwa; so?! Mn a7enh tba ttzwj

5awla kept thinking about the marriage thing , she was only 13 and he was 15. Mn da5l galbha she never want to see 3mait married 3shan that means hell leave her and forget about her. She doesn't want that at all. She wants him to be always there for her.

3mair; nsthbl balach:p w b3dain youm b8r'r atzwj! Ba5th opinion 5awool awal shay!

5awla; u better -.- ana agool la2 or hayh

she felt mrta7ah again. She smiled at the fact that shell keep saying no to every girl. She knows that 3mair considers 5awla his first concern.

3mair; akeed <3

01 February 2012

THE END !!! H's fairytale !

Not the perfect ending, it happened bs che. I decided to get over with this story since i have another one in mind.
Im feeling really excited about the other , ill be posting the 1st post soon!
I hope u enjoy the second stroy of mine
i feel so sorry about the ending of this but i just wanna get it done.
Sam7oooni w i dont mind having critics :D

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(5leefh)
I woke up feeling really dizzy and having a loo3ah ….. 7amdoo was not there so I guess gaamt w yalsa fl 9alaah
I headed to the 9alah, watching her sleeping on the couch
I smiled at her innocent, cute face. She looked adorable. I sat right next to her and I pulled her slowly towards me. She quickly woke up and kissed my neck
7amda: Good morning handsome
5leefh: 9baa7 elwayh el7loo anaaa
7amda: zain che ? 5laaitni brro7i yalsa w chan argd
5leefh: walla mdri balay 7beebti , t3baan mt3wd 3la jaw spain w che eltime difference
7amda: I understand! Enzeen yalla bsr3h EAT! We need to go to ur 3amoo!
5leefh: adri, shell kill me a9ln! m7aa’6raa
7amda: m7d galk tswi ely swaith…
5leefh: u don’t get what I went through and how I felt
7amda: aaahh 7beebi plz 5alaa9! Lets not talk about anything! New page ?
5leefh: new page laaaajl haal 3yoon
I kissed her eyes and left her to take a quick shower.
I have no idea how to start the conversation with 3amoo, it would be really awkward.
The problem is that my genes and 7amda’s genes cannot connect; if I married anyone else with matching genes then we would have babies. I would never say that to 3amo but I would never tell her that im just not capable of having babies which I am capable of doing. I didn’t tell 7amda that to, maba a’6agha.
Trust me, today is gonna be weird!
( La6ifah)
Im having Goosebumps today, I feel really nervous. Kl 7d by3rf 3n 56btna w I guess they’ll be shocked especially 5aloof but what matters it that were finally together for real.
Im telling u, m y fiancé is CRAZY!
He sends me gifts to my room, he calls to sing me songs, he does everything that no 9a7i person would and that is what I love about him.
He gives me this feeling that I want him ! That I love him more and more every day. He gives me this energy and he made a huge difference in my life.
Dinner is nearly ready, 3alya is coming today with man9oor, and meera is coming, 7amda and 5aloof! Aah im so nervous! I haven’t seen these people in ages.
I was sitting in this corner where I could see who walks by. I saw meera with her bag so I decided to go and say hi “el7mddlah 3la elsalma”.
When I entered thee meelas, I saw 3amoo and meera having a little talk
When meera saw me she was really happy
La6eefah: AHLAIIIN!! WELCOME BACK
She hugged me
Meera: OMG U DID IT BITCH!! MARRIED HA?
La6eefah: ssshhh f’67teena , allah y5leech shoofi mno warach ! 3amoo
Meera: who cares! Walla im so happy for u 7beebti!
La6eefah: thnxx! Yalla annaa bseer byls ta7at! Come b3daain
Meera; ok

I left the room and I was about to head downstairs but all of a sudden mayed appears
I was really embarrassed, I didn’t want him to see now! LATER AFTER DINNER MAYBE
He smiled and he took my hand
He came so close, I started going back but wtf were on the stairs! I was about to fall but he kept holding me tightly
La6eefah: mayood!
Mayed: aahh 3yoonh 9ootch ythb7
La6eefah: mayood walla 3aib bs! 3amoo bt6ll3naa
Mayed: enzeen kiss me gbl la arw7
La6eefah: maba -.-
Mayed: enzeen ma3laih I will

He pushed me to the wall , and he placed his lips on mine
I couldn’t fight it, I couldn’t push him !
pfftt ! who am I kidding? I wanted it so bad…
I came back to reality so I quickly ran away from him the minute his lips left mine.
I can feel him smiling
I went back to the room downstairs. Shaikhoo and maryoom were sitting so I joined them
They all started making na’3zaat and torturing me with their stupid questions
HOW WHEN WHY WHAT LAISH MA TGOOLELNA
These type of questions…
I thanked god that 3alya finally appeared, yes we don’t know 3alia but weve talked to her a couple of times and weve been skyping so she’s considered family
And let me tell u , 3AMOOO ADORES man9oor. Hes like her favorite guy ever, she feels so bad that ma kan n9eeb shai5oo but tbh they didn’t even know each other till know y3ne :P w unfortunately he appears to be married to this incredible women with this big baby bump!

We did our greetings and we sat down talking about basoom , joud, and joury who weren’t able to come.
Man9oor left us to go and sit with mayed, meera came in and she got to meet 3alya.
Now, 7amda and 5aloof are the only ones left fort this to be complete.
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(7amda)
5aloof: 7AMDA! Walla mn el9b7 atryach mb 7alah hay
OMG I started panicking, I don’t wanna go there anymore! I don’t want 5aloof to feel awkward or sad. I would like to take the blame atleast jdam 3amth..
5aloof: 7amdoo!!!!!!!!!!!11
7amda: coming coming….
Mama bythb7ni, 9dg et25rt!
I rushed to the 9alah and I saw him there wearing this kandoora
He looks STUNNING
aaa5 I miss him GOD
SHHH 7amdooo focusss

I kept staring at him while having these million thoughts in my mind
He laughed and pushed me towards
He crushed his lips on mine
I was surprised
I took a step back to acknowledge what happened
He held my hand and we went to the car

7amda: 3la kiafk tboosni fj2a -.-
5leefh: 3la kaifch etmeen e6al3eeni , bs I don’t blame u I know I look hot
7amda: s5eeef -.- enzeen 5aloof now let’s be serious
5leefh: shu feech?
I guess he saw the look on m y face and understood everything because usually it would take me years and ages to get him back to being serious.
7amda: I can be the one u know enh chee
5leefh: la ma3rf w may59ch … 7amdoo shu glna new page?
7amda: bs 5leefh ! u know shu 8a9di mabak tt;6ayg or t’6ag 3amatk
5leefh: shoofeni
7amda: aahh im just worried ok
5leefh: agoolch shoofeeni
I turned around and looked at him
He gave me this smile that would make everything seem better
He held my face and he whispered amazing things…. I love him , no one can imagine how
I gave him a small kiss on the cheeks
5leefh: I know what im doing
7amda: and I trust u
5leefh: gooddd… enzeen yalla ay song tbain
7amda: Anything :p I don’t mind
5leefh: ok :p
After 4 years,
Everything went back to normal
5leefh and 7amda adopted 2 kids, 2 boys! Theyre so cute and they have the cutest smile
Meera and Fares are now engaged , they’ll have their wedding soon
L6eefh and mayed headed to sapin in order for mayed to finish his studies there ..
3alya ana man9oor had their first baby!!!