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I promised that ill be posting ams w chee 

Bs lel2sf I didn't 

I really do apologize , ill not be posting this week. 

3ndii wayd ashyaa2 yalsa tstwi w che next week ill be busy like hell. 

Sam7ooni <3

- Shamma 

H's fairytale 52 (a)

i know its really really really really short :(
Sam7ooni!!!!! walla a7bkm bs ma kan 3ndi wgt
Next post bykoon a6wl
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To; Mayed

Mayood plz a5af wallah

From; Mayed

5ala9 3yaal yaynch ana

To; Mayed

Mayood 9dg arms

I waited for a couple of seconds and he didn't reply! What so he's really coming,
I was panacing ! I threw all the stuff into my close to make the room look cleaan

I quickly applied some blush mthl elhabla w 76ait lipgloss
W bsr3h ensd7t 3l bed


I heard a knock on the door
I smiled to myswlf knowing that its him

He whispered so softly
Hus voice KILLED ME! Chee aaaaaaaaaaah

Mayed; ad5l?

I didn't reply! 5ft enh 7d ysm3h or ysm3ni
So I stood up , headed to the door and pulled him insideeee

He was surprise so he started laughing
I locked the door !
La6eefaah; MAYOOD bs ! Btf'67naa

He came so close to me and he placed his hands around my waist , he was smiling looking really hot
I blushed and I looked down

Mayed; 6al3enii 7beebi

La6oof; mayood bs

Mayed; awal shay 6al3eeni

I did what I was told , I looked into his eyes
And they told me many many things
They told me that mayed needs me and that he's been through a lot but he found me now w hatha elmhm....

I hugged him
And he placed a soft kiss on my neck


Etgrbt mn his ear and I whispered

La6oof; mayood a7bk

Mayed; wna b3d

I was still in his arms , wrapping my arms around his neck

La6oof: bs ana a7bk mnzmaan ...

I said that with a tear
I let go
And I sat on the bed

Crying silently
He was blown awaay by what I said and my reaction toward my words


He came and sat next to me
Hugging me from the side

Mayed; bs ana a7eenh hnii

La6oof; gbl wain knt ! Ha mayood ! Youm knt mayta abak bs tla7'6ni

Mayed; hatha gabl ! Ensay gabl

I turned around and I looked at him
He smiled
And so did I

I came even closer
And I sat on his lap

Wrapping my arms around his neckk

I whispered

La6oof; tell me something ....

Mayed; shu

He whispered back

La6oof; gooly shay 7loo

I blushed and I smiledd

Mayed;


.......

Diary of F 4

You can’t sleep? Me neither I cant seem to stop thinking about you. You have no idea how hard it is to force myself to stop thinking about you sometimes.  Its hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember. How much I’ve changed since you’ve been a part of my life. Sometimes I want to meet the person I would have been if I didn’t meet you.‬

‪I would always tell myself one day, there’s going to be a guy who’s going to love you, your body, your smile, the way you walk, the way you talk, the way you laugh, he’s going to love you and you’re going to feel confident and on top of the world. One day, you won’t feel insecure. Your day will come, I promise. And it did, my knight in shining armor came for me. If it weren’t for you I would be still that girl who looks at her reflection in the mirror and pointed out every flaw. You were a flame that lit up my whole world.‬

‪It’s just… I look at you and I see the kind of person I want to share my life with. I know I probably sound crazy, but I’ve never been able to look at someone the way I look at you. Conversations with you comes naturally, I don’t have to think about what to say. I hate you for leaving me alone but I love you at the same time. Sometimes I want to throw you off a cliff, then rush to the bottom to catch you, your making me go crazy.‬

‪The truth is I still care and always will. I’m not the type of girl to let people walk out of my life and pretend that they don’t matter anymore. I may not like that person anymore or talk to him or her but, I still care. I’m always going to think back to my life and say I wondered what happened to so and so. I hope they’re all right. I will actually mean it. That is the type of person I am. Once you’re in my heart, you’re there forever.

H's fairytale 51

5aloof; aloo

Ma gdrt , I immedietly dm3t , 7saait b galby shwei w bywgf ,,,
Aaah fdaait 9ooth kaif I miss it ..

5aloof; 7amdoo?

I cried silently , el7mdllah 3rfnii .. Fdait esmi 3la lsanh

5aloof; 7beebti wagfi 9yaa7 5ala9 ... Yalla 3shani ems7i dmoo3ch
7amda; ma7b 5aloof ma7bk:(
5aloof; shhhhh

7amda; laish twdrni haaa ! T5leeni w tsafr 5aloof ! Ahoon 3laik ana
5aloof; 7amdoo lw enty en76aiti fe mkani shu btsween y3ne?! Hal shay dmrni nfsyn
7amda; enzen bs ana hni ! 7rmtk hnii ! 3yooni lk
5aloof; etwlht 3laich w 3la ree7tch w 3la kl shay
7amda; I need u 5aloof please come back wayd 6wlt ! Walla el3'6eem maba yahal lw allah mb katblna

He was queit , he didn't reply

7amda; a7bk wayd wayd , mb gadra ana 5leefh , ma ashthi 2akl , ma ashthii ashoof elnass ! I became lonely bdoonk ..... Mb gadraa at28lm wyaa 3mry wla wya elnass
5aloof; 3yal 7alti ana shu 7amdoo , elrgaad mb shay bdoonch , karh 3mri w eldnya enh I can't make u happy
7amda; u can , walla lw hal shay mstwi feeni wayd a7ssn !

I felt him smiling w I smiled back

7amda; rgdni 5aloofiii

5aloof; mnsd7a 3l bed ..

7amda; hayh

5aloof; enzen yalla t5yly 3mrch fe 7'6nii w '3m'6ii 3yoonch

7amdaa; hmmmmmm

5aloof; t9b7een 3la 5air 7beebti

He whispered that and ended the conversation

Rgdt b ra7aaah nfsyh wallah!

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(Reem)

A7mad; okk esm3oo al7een , london srnalha ! Kam mrh enseer ! Its time for italyyy

Shamma; shu italy baba ;@ hnaak klh a7bk w a7bch ana ma bstaans

I looked at a7mdoo and laughed , this little girl is a CUTIEE

Nshait mn mkaani w srt ylst 3ndha w '6maaitha to 7'6nii
Reem; enzen enty wain tbain tsereen mama...?
Shee kept thinking with her finger on her chin , looking very cute
A7mad; haa 5l9ti tfkeer

He said that with a smirkk

Shamma: haayh 5l9t! Aba aseer AMERICA!
A7mad; eyheeee rdaaina , ana sayrnlha mlyoon mrh w dars hnaak b3d bs asmeeh mtwlh 3laihaa
Shamma; 3yal 5ala9 baba plz 3shaanii
She stood up and sat on a7mdoo's leg

A7mad; enzeen w mama shu rayha?
Reem; ay shay yry7km yry7ni ..
A7mad; ok 5ala9 b7jzz tickets wntu get ready
Shamma; enzen mtaa bnseer ,, che eldate bl'6b6

A7mad; shdrani 5leeni a7jzzz w yalla goomi foog aba arms mama shway -,-

He looked at me and winked
Shamma; mabaa -,- shu btgoolha?
A7mad; shay may59ch
Shamma; ma3laih baaba , bz3l mnk lel2bdddd !
A7mad; mt2kdh lel2bd?
Shamma; la bs youm aba shay byeek ;p

She stood up , gave a7mdoo a mad look and headed foog
I laughed at her last comment , walla ns5aa mn uboohaa hal bnttt !

A7mdoo cameee very close to me w he placed a very soft kiss on my neck

Its really strange , all my friends who got married ygoolon enh after kmn year all the love disappears w won't feel anything toward raylch l2nh btmleen mnh w swalf che
Bs wya a7mad everything is different
That kiss made me shiver A LOT !
It made me blush 7taa

A7mad; a7bch t3rfeen

He whisperred

Reem; wna amoot feek

And I turned around to give him my lips ....

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(La6oof)

To; mayed
Shu a6l3 bara3 mayood! Look at the time !

From; mayed
Aba armsch shwei plz

To;mayed
Trmsni 3n?

From; mayed
Come w b3dain bgoolch

To;mayed
Mayood a5aaf lw 7d shafna

From; mayed
7beebti elkl ragd ..

OMG! 7beeebtiii!! La6oof ur man is saying 7beebti to u

Omgggg la6ooF
YOU GOT HIM BAD !
I started dancing a little dance that I do when I feel happy -.- I know I'm s5eefh
Bs its mayed ya nass

From: mayed
Bt6l3een wla ayech now -,-?

H's fairytale 50

Reallyy?!!! 50 wowww!!! 

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(Mayed)

I woke up feeling really dizzy , I went to the bathroom and washed my face .... 

I prayed w 6l3t mn 7jrti ..

I headed downstairs w ylst wya 3amoo

She was crying w 3yoonha mntf5a

I got worried w bst rashaa

Mayood; balach 3amoo?! 

3amoo; 5aloof 

Mayood; 5ala9 fkoona ! 5leefh is fines trust me w b3dain enty t3rfeen 7rkaat 5aloof .. Hoo y7b yeels broo7h youm mt'6ayg

3amoo; bs hal mrh 6awal 

Mayood; its shocking 3amo 3shan che

3amoo; enzEn mb lazm etm wyahaa , ygdr ya5th '3aairha 

Mayood; shu t5rfeen 3amo! 7amda mb elmshklh ... Elmshklh feeh

3amoo; latfawwl mayood 

W she pushed me away

Mayood; walla 3amoo I'm serious tra elmshklh feeh , 3adii allah ma ketab

3amoo; shu yals tgool mayod :s 

Mayood; I know 3amoo its heartbreaking bs et7mlai

3amoo; AT7ML ! He's my son :s ! W b3dain laish ma 5brtooni ana 2a5r mn ya3laam :s ! Wadniii spaain wadnii e7jzli ticket yalla

Mayood; 3amoo haddi! Mmkn thdeen? 5ala9 give him time, laish kl7d che yalsa yswi ! Entu t3rfeen 5aloof wayd 3dl y3ne 5ala9 5looh

3amoo; bs merro sarat spain w bteebli news enshallah

When I heard her name , I felt angry

Mnzman ma shftha , she's been away for so long 

Mayood; rw7t hnak?

Uff hal 5aysh, 7taa lain hnak la7gtnh? Shu tba mnh ! Elrayal mtzwj ...... 3afan allah 

3amoo; hayh ... 

Mayood; enzen yalla 3amoo ana b6l3 b3d shwei bs bseer foog btsb7

3amoo; enshallah 7beebi

I left her alone with all these confuseed questions in my head .. 

Laish sarat hnak?

Uff mayood stop thinking about her .. She's not worth it 

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(Meera) 

Fares; mabaa noo9l spain

I laughed at his comment 

Meera; LOOL WHY , I'm excited shwei

Fares; kaif bshoofch 3gb -,-" 

Meera; u can call me or text ,,,, 

Fares; enzeen hatha r8mii 

I wrote it on a kleeeniks 

And I placed it into my pocket....

I smiled at him and he kissed my cheeks 

Meera; fares bs -.- wayd ma5th ra7tk

Fares; ya5ii 7baaitch ;;) 

Meera; I like you too ;p

We both smiled 

w after the plane arrived , we were apart 

I felt like I would never see him agaain

And that made me feel very sad , maba! 

I liked him , 7saait enh I couldd start any kind of conversation with him... 

Bs 3ndi ra8mh 9a7? I could call him any timee .. 

I arrived at spain, took a cab and went to 5aloofs house

Youm w9lt shft penelope w slmt 3laihaa

Ya labby hal 7rmrh kaif 7boobh

We talked but 5aloof was no where

Meeera; so where is khalifa?

Penelope; well he's been out since yesterday , he doesn't come home that much ... U know because of wat happened?

Meera; penelope is it him or her?

Penelope; its him darling

And a tear 6a7t mn 3ainhaa 

I was shocked , my man can't have babies

Hell! How's he feeling right now ... I need to talk to him

Fdaaith wallah! 

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(La6oof)

I was lying on my bed , playing with my fone

Fj2aa my fone beeped as in I received a msg

I checked and it was mayood 

I smiled to myself

From; Mayed

Please eft7i babch w shli elwrga el9fraa ely 3nd eldoorstep

;*

I got really exited , I jumped mn my bed w I quickly headed to my door, I opened it and there was this yellow post-it note

I grabbed it and looked around to see if he was there

But he was not

I went back , ensd7t w I slowly opened the post-it

Kan mktoob feehaa

" A7bcch yal shortiee " w he drew me

I smiled .. He's so cute ... 

5shait elpost-it fl drjj planning eny a7tf'6 fl post-it for the futuree ..:p awwni 9dgt 3mry 

Wallah bs 5a6aah ! EWWW -.-" 

I smiled to myself again

And I grabbed my fone

To; Mayed

Adree t7bnii wya 5a6k ... 

From: mayed 

E6l3eeli shwei la6oof ... 

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I was sitting alone on our bed , looking at my phone .. Hesitating whether I call him or not.

If I called right now then hed be awake because its morning over there .. 

I grabbed my fone but 3la 6ool hdaith

Ufff m3rf shagool youm at9l feeh 

Kaif armsh? Ymkn ma yba yrmsni?

Ufff this is so hard , a7s I'm a stranger to him a7eenh 

5ala9 7amdoo just breathee w call 

I dialed the # that mayood sent 

W I was shaking mn el5oof

Trrrn trrrn -- trrrn trrrnnn --- trrnnn trrnnn

5aleefh; aloo

Diary of F 3

‪ Nothings changed except for my love for you, its been growing everyday and it seems like it will never stop and I don’t want it to. What's not to love about you? Your lame jokes that managed to make me laugh no matter what mood I’m in.  Or when we were in a middle of a phone call you would ask me why am I smiling when I was, it amazed me how you can sense it every time, I would deny it but you know I was lying and tease me until I admit that I was. how could he see that I was smiling?  We had our own language we would give each other looks and understand what the other meant without a single word. You remember the little things, the little details I mention. After watching The Notebook remember when I told you I wish I got a handwritten letter the next day I found a love letter in my locker, it was from you , you took me by surprise I was caught up in the moment from the movie I never thought that you would put the time and effort to do something so romantic. What I loved about you the most was your presence, kan lak haibaa that I was crazy over something that makes you think that’s a man right there.‬

‪I guess you never know what you’ve got until its gone, you see I didn’t just loose the love of my life I lost my best friend too. I made a promise to you that I will always be yours and I plan on keeping it. I know if keep doing this I will lose my sanity or what is left of it. Its funny I make believe that your still here cause its the only way I can function. Reminiscing  every sweet moment, remember those sweet nothings whispered in my ear and blush like your right here in front of me. So why are we now strangers when our love is strong? How can you carry one without me? You seem to move on easy. Or is it just an act because you’re a man you feel you need to be the strong one? I try to be strong too I don’t want to let you know that all this distance is killing me. I just need to distract myself from the thought of you, fill my days with activities and chores and put on that fake smile that I always wear after waking up.‬

‪I can sense how your friends treat me now, walking on egg shells trying not to hurt my feelings. did you tell them that I’m that sensitive or do I seem that fragile now?  But its not just your friends its everyone who feels pity for me. As much as I try everyone can see through me.‬

‪For now I am Cinderella waiting for her prince charming to find me and give me back my glass slipper so they could live happily ever after.

H's fairytale 49

I woke up feeling like absolute shit; it feels really wrong without him. I don’t know if someone can feel what im feeling, it’s like I exist but I don’t really exist. He completes me and he understands me really well.  Where is he? Mn 9jk 5aloof? You think that what ure doing is helping me? You think what ure doing is going to solve the problem?

I can’t do this, 5ala9 I made up my mind. Its doesn’t matter if he wants to see me or la2

It doesn’t matter if hes interested in talking to me or la2

All I care about is seeing him and a6mnn 3laaaih

Im going to Spain

I grabbed my fone and I dialed mayood’s number

Trrrnnn trrrnn trrrn

Mayed: halla

And his sleepy voice made me laugh

7amda: hhahaha mayoodd 9ootk wnth ragdaa NKTAAAH

Mayed: chub, 5l9eeni shu tbain

7amda: enzeen enzeen -.- aba aseer spain…

Mayed: t7sbt 3ndch salfh , agool skri w 5leeni akml rgadi

7amda: mayood 9dg don’t break my heart please I need to see him

Mayed: 7amdoo hoo 6elab mni a5leech hni

7amda: mb 3la kaifh! Hes been acting like a kid ! yt7ra ely yalsa ysweeh is making me happy wla shay? Hes killing me by staying away

Mayed: shoofi b36eech r8mh mal spain w call

7amda: tfhm 3rbi? AGOOLK I NEED TO SEE HIM

Mayed: wna agoolch enh maystwi w b3daain hoo byrd che wla che

7amda: mta byrd? Youm byt2kd enh 7amda 5alaa9 matat?

Mayed: 7amdoo kbrii rasch w fkri , b6rshlch elra8am

7amda: I hate you

Mayed: aba m9l7tch , I know 5aloof 3adel , you going there will not make him happy. Hell get mad

I didn’t reply to that , ma yba yshoofni y3ne?

I kept crying silently

Mayed: 7amda please, 9dgeeni byrd! Konni gwya

7amda: mayood la t39bniii! IM DEAD! U don’t understand anything, ur not feeling what im feeling

Mayed: 7amdoo just give him a call

7amda: enshallah

I clicked the red button and ensd7t 3l bed again…. Should I call him?

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(Meera)

Meera: 3amoo yalla I need to go . ma bl7gg 3l plane:s

3amoo: meroo please 6mneeni 3laaih w golelh yt9l feeni ! yalsaa a7ateeh wayd

Meera: 3yal ana shagool 3amoo, im dying! Ma7ad galh ytzwj w7dh mateeb 3yaal -.-

3amoo: ana amoot w a3rf el3aaib fe mnoo ! t5yly wldnaa ! YA WAILYY 3laa wldi ana bsss fdaaith

And she started crying all over again

I hugged her and I promised her that ill take care of 5aloofi

3amoo: ya rait lw ma5thnch yaa meero chan mrtaa7een n7n

I blushed , its not too late 9a7?

3amoo: fdaaitch ana bs yalla mama roo7i w call me youm btoo9leen

Meera: enshallah bs akeed el3aib feeha 3amoo fa la t7atennn

3amoo: enshallah! Maba galb wldii ynksr

Meera; yalla tc 3amoo w et9lii feeni lw tbain ay shay!

I left her and I headed to the airport

Youm w9lnaa elairport , it was like really za7ma

I quickly placed my bags w rkbt elplanee

I took a seat next to a stranger ….

From his looks I guessed he was 5leeji

I decided to start a conversation with him because seriously he seemed intresting

Che his HAIRCUT his EYES and his CLOTHES

He made me feel really curious

Meera: so first time to spain?

Guy: yup u?

Meera; ana b3d

He smiled and we were silnet

I suck at starting conversations y3nee bare with me dude a keep the conversation alive -,-

Meera: my name is meera

Guy: im Fares

Meera: nice to meet you fares

I smiled and so did he

Fares: excited about spain?

Meera: lool u shouldnt ask me that

He looked at me with a weird look

Fares; laisshhh ??

Meera; because I have all these kind of emotions toward going to spain. Im worried yet excited

Fares; ohh laish sayra hnaak?

I looked at him and I don’t know why but I felt that I could tell him

His eyes made me feel really comfortable and I loved how his smiled gave me this warm feeling

Mayed; my love is there

He smiled and he placed his hands on his heart

Fares; yl3n uboo el7ub yaa nass

I laughed and so did he

Meera: bad  love experience?

Fares: hell yaa wnti?

Meera; u can say that I never was in a real relationship with him but I adore him mn 9’3ri

Fares; l hal draja hes blind , hes ignoring this SEXY CHICK THAT’S SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO ME

I shushed him with a goofy smile , hes funny? I like him !

Meera; ayyh f’67tna  -.-  well hes a looser u know? He got married and hes having all these love problems with his wife

Fares; m7d gaalh ytkbr w y6wwf hal gmaaarrr ;)

Meera: ur flirting? -.-

Fares: yes I am ;)

He came closer to me , whispering fee 2thooni

Fares; you like it

I smiled and I pushed him away

He smiled and he winked

LOOL 6aa7t elmyanaa baina w we don’t even know b3’6

Hes cute shwei 9a7?

Just checking ...

Ahlaainn !!!!!

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Please comment on whether you like the idea of "Diary of F" and give me some feedback on "H's fairytale"


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Diary of F 2

I’ve found comfort from conversations with strangers, conversations with friends quickly become arguments. they can’t understand me or even have sympathy for what I am going through but complete strangers sympathize with me ? They keep telling me that I am obsessed with you that I link you to every thought or action that and all I keep thinking is you can’t understand because you simply never fell in love‬


You and I both know I can never say that out loud, I care too much for other people’s feelings even though I am my own worst critic. I can never listen to what they say because they always judged you saying ihwaga3d yg9 3alaichbut they don’t know you like I do… right? Or am I blinded by love? I always loved the fact that there was a side to you that only I knew about, my little secret. The caring man who would do anything in his power to make sure that I’m safe and happy but have you seen how I’ve been lately? Do I seem happy to you?‬


I have always been the quiet one never really the one to start a conversation whether it was with family or close friends. That day when I was out with my cousin s2latni shfeech shaklich mahmooma? There were two replies to her question one was wintii3gb kil hal wagt tawichla7a’9tai ilham ili ana feh? And then there was the one that I replied with tee one I said out loud Haha laa mafeenishay bas ta3bana shway‬


 I see you laughing and smiling and all I can think is how can he forget and move on? Or are you the perfect actor? Or maybe just perfect. Never have I met a man so charming or as charismatic as you. La7een at’thakar shgaad kint t’3eer 3ali bzyadah I us to find it so annoying but now looking back its my only proof of how much you care about me. My dear  how can I ever move on if your name is engraved in the very same heart that keeps me alive ?‬

‪No one knows that I secretly meet up with you every night in my dreams, say what I’ve never had the courage to tell you, show you how much I really do love you sit and talk for what seems like forever with our fingers intertwined until we are interrupted by an alarm clock that wakes me up to face my reality, my life without you


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H's fairytale 48

(La6oof)

I can't undersand this dude, he's been acting weird since that day.
He was sitting right next to me and I'm feeling che not mrta7ah, I can feel that he can look right through me
I keep blushing when his eyes meet mine

Allah y3lm shu l3bt w mnoo fazz

My thoughts were all going like this " MAYED MAYED MAYED MAYED"
That's all I was thinking about ..

Suddenly, maryoums annoying voice woke me up
It brought me back to reality

Maryam; LA6OOOOF! Wainch! Ur sucking at this! Mayed can't even play correctly mnch

La6oof; well I quit! Ur game sucks

Shaikha; yaa blame it on the game -,-

I got up planning to leave THEM and go to my room
Watch a movie or something ... But his voice made me pause.

Mayed; wain ray7a?

I was giving him by back , I didn't want to turn around and see his sexy face l2nh I would look stupid che I will not be able to respond

Mayed; YOOh! La6eefa

I was still giving him my back

Shaikha; LA6OOOF! Shu u paused faj2a

Maryoum laughed and shaikha did too

I suddenly felt his footsteps , so he's now planning to come to me

I quickly started running but he was too quick
He grabbed me and he looked into my eyes
Giving me this " sexy " look

Mayed; 3la wain?

With the cutest smirk ever ..

I couldn't reply
I couldn't respond
I couldn't focus
I couldn't concentrate


All I could hear is my crazy cousins comments
And all I could feel is his hot breath
I was a statue.





Mayed; la6oof?
I hesitated in answering but I had to

L6efh; y es?

He grabbed my hand and he took me upstairs , away from maryoum and shai5oo

L6eefh; mayed stop! 3la kaifk!

Mayed; eskti and follow me

L6eefh; hdnii! Let go of my hand!

I was trying so hard to let go of his gripp
I was staring at his hand that grabbed my hand
Looking frustrated

Mayed; wayd daloo3a?
La6oof; what are u talking about? I didn't want to play!
Mayed; u can't just leave like that
La6oof; laish
Mayed; because I said so

I started laughing ? Who does he think he is?

La6oof; laish ubooy wla u5ooy wla raylii?

I kept laughing so hard , walla awwnh m9dg 3mrh yt7km feeni

But his face was staright with a goofy smile

La6eefh; what now -.-

He pushed me closer to him and he whispered into my ears

Mayed; raylch.. If ull marry me y3ne ..

I smiled. I knew he didn't mean it like seriously marrying me
But the though of it made me smile and blush
His words made me happy

Mayed; so?

He whispered again

I was now in his arms

La6oof; mayed
Mayed; 3yoonh

I looked up and his eyes met mine ..

I blushed and I quickly looked down

La6oof; mayed I need to go
Mayed; laish?
La6oof; t78ee8?
Mayed; la tna8sheeni la6oof ma7b
La6oof; enshallah

I smiled , I loved the fact that he was ordering me what to do w chee
I felt like he had the right to control me
I was loving it
I felt like I was his and he owned me

U can't imagine how much I was happy

La6oof; hmm and bared 7jrti
Mayed; enzen bw9lch

He took my hand and we walked to my room

La6oof; gn

I was planning to go in
But he stopped me
He pushed into his arms mn wra
W he placed a very light kiss on my neck

I had these chills that went through my body
Ertjft mn kthr maa his kiss made me go crazy

Mayed; gn l6eefh

He whispered that and left.



I was shocked , what happened?
Am I intresting now?
Like

He notices me now?
I'm not his cousin that he barely knows
I'm the girl that he teases and flirted with
I'm the girl that he kissed gn tonight
I'm the girl that made his eyes spark mn kthr elfara7


El7mdllah <3
Yes I know its just the beggening of mayed and l6eefh
But I promised that ill make mayood fall inlove with me so BADLY

I want to live my love story , my dream with mayood is finally coming true.

I smiled while making myself go to sleep.

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(5leefh)

Penelope; Khalifah, when are u gonna call her? Hamda is definitley very worried now !

5aloof; 5aloo u don't really understand , its not like I don't want to! I just can't I don't have the power to face her anymore.

Penelope; I don't know khaloof, but she needs you now.

penelope kissed me goodnight and left , I know what she said was extremely true
I know that 7amdoo needs to listen to my voice right now
But I can't! I'm not ready
I miss her a lot , I miss her smell , I miss her laugh , I miss her.

Fj2a 7saait footsteps mn elstairs , I turned around and It was penelope again

Penelope; sorry didn't mean to scary u but meera is coming tommorow

5aloof; what:s why:s u think I'm in the mood 5aloo

Penelope; I don't know son , she called and that's all she said , sheell be coming to check on u

5aloof; well I'm fine , she's that last thing that I need right now

Penelope; just be nice khaloof


She left again
And I sat alone staring at my fone

7amdas picture as my wallpaper....


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(7amda)

I can't sleep , it just feels so empty without him.
I can't sleep without him on our bed
I can't sleep without him touching me and breathing on my neck
I can't sleep like this
I just can't

I started crying while looking at his picture from our wedding album
We looked very happy but what happened?

I kissed him on his lips
7amda; why did u leave me 5aloof

I hugged the picture , my heart was in severe pain.

Diary of F 1

Sometimes there are no words to describe the situation you are in or what your feeling. Tears seem to be the solution for everything right now and I don't know if that makes me weak. I just pray that one day I will wake up to a solution or is the solution right in front of me this whole time and I'm still blinded by my emotions ? Its funny it seems like all the songs I sing along to are talking about my situation, if I can relate to all these people why isn't anyone willing to share an answer to my problems ? Will I look back at this one day and think how naïve was I ? Or look back and say how did I ever get through this ? I’m writing all of this and I don’t even know who I’m directing it to … I’m not even making any sense to myself but I feel as if a weight has been lifted off of my chest for writing this … maybe this is what I needed all along ? Somewhere I can write what I please anonymously ? I think I've been heartbroken for so long that I have become emotionless ... It hurts because I want to be happy I hate my situation right now but what can I do? I have all this anger directed towards him but I know one look from him and all that anger banishes into another world and comes back again when I’m alone with my thoughts… I really miss you , you really are my other half the only person that I’m completely honest with, but you asked me to change so much that I wonder if I am really myself ? Or a product of what you expect me to be? Don’t get me wrong you really did change me for the better, cared for me when I never did...‬


Its funny min kithr ma I think about you I started accidently calling people by your name ? I just hope I’m deep in your thoughts as much as you are in mine ... ya allah what would i give for just another conversation with u ...‬

‪Everyone is telling me to move on but how can i when your a'3la insaan fe 7ayati?‬

 

‪

Dairy of F introduction

HELLO guyz ,

So there is this anonymous person who would like to post her writings through my blog.
I hope that you take time reading her stuff becuase seriously its worth reading.

Well be calling her posts
" Diary of F"
Her first post will be published soon,

Please comment !


I LOVE YOU

- Shamma <3

H's fairytale 47

WTF?!
What is he planning to do? Kill me?
He turns off his fone and he ignore all msgs

GOD he's acting like a kid, I know the news are bad but I'm here IM RIGHT HERE FOR HIM!
I couldn't sleep that night , every 5 seconds I keep calling , checking if he switched on his fone.

I had the need to just cry, the pain is killing me
The feeling of sadness and madness are taking over me.
I'm not the patient person , I can't wait for him to just cool down and call back

I need news NOW!
A week passed by and 5leefh m5tfi;s
I couldn't eat , I couldn't sleep , I just couldn't live without him...
I don't know where is he or what he's been up too
Its killing me that he doesn't even care to pick up the fone and y6mn 3lai or y6mniii 3laih ...

I told mayed and he said that hell search for him
Reem knows , a7mad knows , la6oof w her cuzns y3rfoon
Bs mashay faydah! 5aloof is no where

I'm devestated , I'm actually a complete mess.
I have lost a huge amount of weight
And I even forgot how to sleep ;s

Mayed had called and he said that he had news , I told him to come by the house and he did

He was shocked by my appearance , I'm nothing without 5aloof ..

Mayed; 7amda shu mswya fe 3mrch?
7amda; mayood please I'm tired just tell me shu elnews
Mayed; enzeen ylsi 7amdoo w take a deep breath
7amda; mayood walla t3banah wallah

And I started crying
Mayed; lw bteelsen t9e7een ma bgoolch, 5ala9 give the man time , what he heard was above his strength:)
7amda; I know I know bs he left me all alone , I've been worried enzen 5lh y7ss feeenii!!!
Mayed; he's in spain
7amda; WHAT! He's out of the country;s
Mayed; yes
7amda; but how a'3raa'6h thyaabh ME
Mayed; 7amdoo I hope ench ttfhmain w'63h
7amda; are u stupid? I'm his wife!

I started screaming things , he has no right to do this , to go to spain without telling me.

Mayed; he told me to keep an eye on u w take care of u for some time

7amda; but I need him! I need to talk to him ... He needs to know a lot of things

Mayed; hell be back soon , give him time

7amda; UFFFFF

Mayed; yalla tc w lw tbain ay shay call me

7amda; enshallah

Mayed; EAT! Hell kill me if he saw u like this! I promised him to take care of u

He managed to make me smile. Yes! 5aloof is really protective of me

Aah I miss him a lot :( I need his warm chest
And his hot kisses

I need to be in his arms !

7amda; ma3a elslama

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(Mayed)

Youm 6l3t mn bait 7amda , I headed back to home

Youm d5ltt sm3tt 9ooot 9ree5
I quickly got in w I was maddd
Shu hayaail , ybooon yf'67oona ;s!

Mayed; SHWEI SHWEI!

They all loooked at me ans stared

LOOOL aham shay their faces , they made me laugh

I started laughing w they slowly started smiling.
Maryam; MAYOOOD!! Tl3b wyanaa !!!! La6oof neeeds a partner


When I heard her name , I agreed without even thinking!
La6oof; laa ana abaa shai5oo etkoon my partner
Shaikha; yaah t7lmeen -,- you're a looser ana aba maryoom


I went close to la6oof and I hugged her mn wra
Mayed; noo , ana w la6oof ashkara bnfooz 3laaikm

I saw her blush and look at me
Mayed; yalla nbda?


Maryam; YALLA!!!!

H's fairytale 46

So ive told 5aloof about my worries toward elpregnancy thing, bs elmshklh he thinks that my worries are not serious.  We planned to go to the hospital elyoum elm’3rb.

Mn el9b7 wna im feeling che sick w mb mrta7a , aba bs a3rf the real reason behind this late pregnancy 3gbb brtaa7.

We were now sitting on the couch jdam eltv.

I was not with him , he was talking w smiling but I couldn’t understand anything. He felt that so he pulled me close to him w he kissed my head

5alifah: 7beebti can u stop thinking about it? Enshallah kl shay ok

7amda: 5aloof shu feek? Its about the rest of our lives w ur not taking it seriously

I got mad , hes making me frustrated

5alifah: do u want me to freak out mthlch? 7amdoo maybe we should try harder b3daain fe wayd nass che its normal

7amda: no its not ymkn feeni shy

5alifah: bsmllaah 3laaich

I placed my head on his shoulders I kissed his neck

He kissed my nose

5aloof: im sure enh mafeech shay w eldector bygool enh well have to wait enzeen?

7amda: enshallah 5aloof

We were getting ready , he took a quick shower and I got dressed.

It was a very silent ride , I didn’t want to talk. I just wanted this thing to be over

It’s a nightmare walla , u can’t imagine how im feeling right now

Its like ill ruin his future , its like its all my fault ! ill be feeling guilty for the rest of my life

Ill feel guilty and ill end up telling him to get married to an another one and live his life

I don’t wanna do that, 5aloof is mine and only mine but I also don’t wanna be selfish

If he cant live his life with me then I have to let go.

While thinking about all these things , a tear found it way down my cheeks

5aloof: rdaainaa 7amdoo? Shu gtlch ana

7amda: don’t leave me 5aloof

Gbl la nnzl

He hugged me and I didn’t want him to let go of me

I kept holding him

I sobbed and cried

He tried to calm me down but I couldn’t calm down

He held my hand w dshaina da5l , 5aloof went w talked to the nurse w elreception staff

They said that we had to wait for mw3dna way eldector

He took a seat next to me, ywdt eyydh w I looked into his eyes

I knew that he wass worried more than me b3d

Bs he doesn’t wanna show it 3shan his sadness will make me even weaker

I smiled and so did he

Nurse: Madam Hamda

7amda: yes?

Nurse: please follow me

I looked at him again and he gave this warm smile that made feel better

we took some tests , both of us , che blood tests

we waited for the results in the doctor room.

Doctor: so you’ve been married for a year now?

5aloof: a year and 7 months

Doctor: well look at the results and see if there are any problems

He smiled and 5aloof smiled back

Fj2aa the nurse appeared with multiple of papers in her hands

Nurse: the results are ready doctor

Doctor: thank you

She gave him the papers and he took a while just looking at them

5aloof: so doctor?

Doctor: well as I can see , the madam is fine but there is something with you sir that’s making it hard for the pregnancy to occur

WHAT?:S

Is he serious?

What is he saying?

I couldn’t even breathe; I kept looking at both of them with a shocked

5aloof looked more than shocked; his face had all these mad and sad expressions

Omg the doctor just broke my husband’s heart

Doctor: no need to be emotional, its ok it happens

5alifah: can u please give me more details

He said it with a mad tone, he wanted to punch the doctor and kill him

I held his hand but he pushed me away, I knew that he hated himself right now

7amda: 5aloof lets just go please

5alifa: doctor EXPLANATION

Doctor: well im sorry sir , but the results are indicating that ure not capable of having babies

And a tear came down mn 3yoonh

7saait eb galby che shwei w byoogf

He left very angry , now I was alone with the doctor

7amda: ur a very cold doctor! U don’t give bad news like that! U just broke my lovers heart

I gave him my angriest look and left

I went to the bathroom and I kept crying for 4 hours

Just crying, I wanted my heart to stop beating wallah

I don’t want to see him again, I don’t know how ill react

My heart ached , ached for our future without any kids

Ached for the fact that my husband will feel the guilt instead of me

I wish so badly that it was me , it was me instead of him

Allah y3een shu byswi fe 3mrh now …

I left the bathroom

And I decided to get a cab and go back home

I called him mlyoon mrh but no reply

I couldn’t even stop crying

I now that he needs to be alone right now

But he also needs me , he needs to know that it doesn’t matter If we have no kids as long as hes with me wallah

I texted him

I called him

I kept voice notes

But no reply

H's fairytale 45

Uff hatha 7'67k mayood ,

I sawi che fj2a a light got turned on mn one of the 7jar
So I tried my luck w I knocked on the door , hoping it would be this weird latifah.





El7mdllah it was , shee looked shocked w mst7yaah

But she was still giving me this mad look.

El9ra7h ana b3d est7ait youm shftha , ma 3rftt shagool , I don't even know her ;s ! We never ever talked. Zain mnii 3rftt esmhaa

I kept playing with my hair as usual , that happens when I get nervous


She stared at me giving me the "what" look


Mayed; give me a break , feech shay?

Latifah; excuse me?

Mayed; umm yaaa we don't know each other , bs twa t7t a7sch et'6aygti fj2a mni w rw7tii foog wntii z3lana, so is everything fine?


She started laughing and I couldn't understand anything

Mayed; ur very weird

Latifah; malha da3i el7rkaa ely swaaitha twa ;p w b3dain I'm fine ! What made u think I would get mad 3la wla shay!

Mayed; mt2kda?

Latifah; 100%

She smiled agaain , her smile walla enh a7la smile I've ever saw.
Her smile would make anyone smile back.

Mayed; hmm enzeen t9b7een 3la 5air?

Latifah; gn

She was about to close her door , bs ma shb3t mnha ;s! I felt like that I had the neeed to sit with her and get to know her
Her smile w her innocance made my day.

I held the door handlee and she looked confused

Latifah; b3dd fe shay?

Mayed; would you like some company?

I smiled and she blushed looking down

Latifah; no thnx

WHAT:s! Is she serious?

Mayed; shu?

Latifah; shu shu? Glt eny maba ayls wyak.

Mayed; you've got attitude girl

Latifah; gn mayed

Mayed; bs,,,

Latifah; bye mayed

Mayed; la6oofff


And she locked the door behind her


I went back to my room feeeling really happy,
Her smile , her voice , her cute nose
Lool I need to get to know my cuzns! They seem nice.

I've spent all my life in spain with mama , so I have no time for them. Che when I come to dubai , I do all these fun things that don't exist in spain.

Dubai is a world of etnertainment , you can be anywhere at anytime and you'd still get it rocking.

I went to bed w rgdt bsr3hh mn elta3aab ...

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(Latifa)

Walla I couldn't sleep all night , el7mdllah 7as ela5 w yanii flaail.

Bs I was acting really cold like nothing is going on
While everrything is going on.

He looked really cute while he was shocked and confused
I wanted to just hug him and tell him that im inlove with him

Bs la2 la6oof , if u really want him ull have to be strong.

I slept that night , feeling good about the next day. 9a7 enh az3jnii kalamh 3n elzawaj , bs I don't blame him y3ne he doesn't know me.

Aaaaa5aaih I love him.

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(Reem)

A7mad; baba shamma seeri gooly 7g mama wayd t25rnaa ! Yadoo bt'thb7naa

Shamma; enshallah


Ufff hay reemo , doom doom t25rna -.- w 3gbb y7rjoon 3laianaa hnaak.
Were having dinner at goom reem's place.

3zmoona so why not go?

Fj2aa sharefat el7beeeba , looking AMAZING!
I winked w I kept teasing her

All she did was blush and ignore me.

We got into the car.

Shamma; baba laish mama wayd 7lwa wna mb wayd 7lwa :(

Reem; 3shan enty tshbheen ubooch-.-

Shamma laughed and she kissed her father

A7mad; ma3laih reemo , a9ln ttmnaain jmaali entyy


Reem; fdaiat jmaalk 7beebi

I placed my hands on hers

And I kissed her cheeks

She pushed me away w giggled


Reem; sooog 3adel :$

A7mad; t5bleen enty shasawi ana?

Reem; ashkara bntk wra -,-

Shamma; 3adii 3ndi mama *-* I love it when u guyz do this , its really cute :p

A7mad; wallaa enhh bntii tswaa kl banat eldnyaaa

Shamma; bnttt a7mad alxx b3d shuu ;)

We all laughed.

Shamma mashalla kbrt , she's now 5 years old but a really smart one. Her age is just a number, mashallah tfkeerha w est3eebha to stuff makes her seem older.

She's really cool wyana, w mt3wda 3laa 7rkaati w 7rkaat umha, t3rf enh were crazy sa3at w that's what I love about her

That doesn't mean enh m5leenha 3la kaifha , bl3ks she knows whats right and wrong
W she hates to disobey us w ybyn 3laiha youm mswya shay '3l6
Mthl umhaa , very easy to read.

Our small family = amazing , el7mdllah.

We arrived , nzlt shamoo mn elsyaraah w d5lnaa ana w reemo da5l wyaha.

Shamma was holding my right hand and reemo my left hand.


Um reem; ahlaain ahlaain , nawar elbait wallaa


Shamma rk'6t to her grandma , she hugged her really tight and kissed her head.


We sat down , shammo was sitting on my leg.

She kept playing with my kandoora lain ma 3f9thaa!

I whispered to her

A7mad; baba laish ma tsereen tl3been wyahm?

Shamma; tsthbla baba? They're all babies!

A7mad; laish walla wnti shu? Yahl mthlhm

Shamma; awaaih:o ana wayd ar7m


I giggled w I kissed her red cheeks

She hugged me and she asked for my fone so she can play with it.

H's fairytale 44(b)

Did u guyz miss Reem ;p

Lool mnzmaan I didn't post about her ...

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(Meera)

Aaah meera what should u do now? Scream at him mthl doom wla just look at him with this weird face?

I don't know what's up with me now , he just told me that he loves me and all what I am doing right now is staring at him stupidly.
I smiled and I turned my face to the other way , I couldn't make eye contact with mayed right now ;s
It felt werid because I felt something different. My heart started beating so fast that I felt that mayood 7aas fe dagat galbi

He placed his lips on my neck and I went RED!
He's making me sweat and feel hot ;s
I pushed him away again with a serious mad tone;

Meera; mayood just GOOOM! U know that I have no feelings for you and your making me feel sick

I lied. I felt that my body is getting hotter by the minute , I felt something that I couldn't really explain.
I can't handle the fact that he's on top of me now , breathing on my neck , he expects me to go with all of this ?

Meera; I'm sorry but ur making it difficult ;s how can I ever talk to u again y3ne ! Mayood u know that I love u as my friend !

Mayed; take ur stuff and leave plz


He was going to come off me but I held on his hand

Meera; I'm scared

I teared up

Mayed; from?

Meera; love ...

Mayed; a'67k y3ne? Shoofi 5ala9 ana mlaait ! I gave u my heart my everything che fdwa lch. Wnti 7'6rtch mb yals t8dreen elashya ely asweelha lch. So don't now make me feel guilty by all of ur "I'm scared" " I'm tired" act cuz 5ala9 that's too much.

Meera; MAYOOD! Are u serious?

Mayed; laa2 , shu raych enty?

Meera; I'm sorry enzen , I can't just lovee u chee bs , I can't lie to u when I have no true feelings. Just now I felt something but I don't want to make it seem like LOVE fj2a.. U have to give me time.

Mayed; 5 years were not enough? So u need more time?

Meera; u don't get it.

Mayed; bullshit, I'm leaving

He pushed me away and left.

(7amda)

I'm back to my home <3! Its been a week now , me and 5aloof don't get to see b3'6 wayd ;s its very weird! He's been busy with work w meetings , when he comes back I'm always sleeping wla shay.
I don't know what's wrong with me , I'm scared to just sit with him. A5aaf agoolh enh aba aseer aswi tests 3shan elpregnancy to see if I'm capable of getting pregnant!


Hell be devestated.

It was nearly 10;00
Usually 5leefh would be home by now,
I decided to wait for him hal mrh.

2 hours have passed and he's not home yet

I went w 67t 3l bed ...











I felt that someone was touching my face while I'm sleeping
I opened my eyes and he was there
So I fell asleep while waiting for him

I held his t-shirt and I pushed him towards me .
Oh gosh how much I miss his smell and touch

I kissed his lips and I whispered

7amda; ur late again



5leefh; I know , I promise ill make it up

I played with his hair while talking to him , he's getting hotter each day. Nawi ythb7nii
I can't resist HIM!

7amda; 5aaloooooooffff
5leefh; 3yoon 5aloof
7amda; I love you

He smiled and he kissed my neck

Fj2a et'thkrt the pregnancy thing
5ala9 I have to tell him:s

7amda; 5aloof aba agool shayy


He was kissing my neck and my ears
Ignoring what I said
He thought it would be something chee normal but it wasn't

I placed my finger on his lips


7amda; 5aloof we need to talk


He looked at me che very nervous and worried

5aloof; shu feech:s?

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(Mayed)

I was so angry and pissed off that I couldn't see ay shay jdaami;s
I was driving so fasttt , my heart was beating like hell.


Awwnh shee needs more time , oh how I wasted my life loving somone 7g 5 years , someone that doesn't deserve my love.

I got into 3amoo's house che elbackdoor , I quickly ran upstairs to my room locked the door and took a quick hot shower.

I decided to go downstairs to watch tv wla shay
Bs alhi 3mry 3shan hal lailh t3di 3la 5aiir ,
Youm nzlt shft kl 7d yals inlcuding yadoo

Bst rashaa w ylst 9oobha , we talked and joked about mostly kl shay.

El7mdllah 5f'fww 3n hamii shweii
Elkl kan ys2l wain meera w wain meera bs swaait 3mri ma3rf l2nh I'm not in the mood to explain.


Yadoo; mayood 7beebi mta nawi t3rs , u5ook 3aras w 5ala9 a7eenh doork

Mayeed; ayy 3rsss yadooh! Ana mb wayh zawaj 9dgeenii

They all laughed , but that girl " I seriouslu don't know her name" well I guess she's my cuzn
I know none , bs meeroo y3nee

A'6ni asameehm is like maryam , l6eefh w shaikha
Something like that.
Anyways one of them started blushing like crazy


Yadoo; fee 7d fe balk 7beebi , tra 3ndna 4 bnaat hnii , e5taar ely etyoozlk

Mayed; laa mafee w7dh fe bali wla shay , b3dain hayail klhm 5awaatii ..

I smiled

They smiled back but that girl , the blushing girl , looked mad;s I mean litterly mad , she wanted to smack me
Wtf is going on?

Girl; ana bst2thn , waray dawam w t3banah

Yadoo; laish la6oof mama , ylsi wyana shwei , haa mayood yals b3d !

So l6eefh it is.

La6eefh; sam7eeni yadoo bs walla waray uni w mb raymh ashr


She execused herself w rw7t foog
My thoughts were killing me! Wtf is wrong with her?
Shu swaitlha 3shan t36eeni n'6ra 78eera gbl la trw7
I wanted to go and talk to her


I excused myself b3d w rw7t foog
Noww ill have to guess which room is hers.

DAMN!

H's fairytale 44(a)

I woke up , seeing mayed by my side.
I thanked god enh he likes me w hell be there for me no matter what.
Mdri laish kl 7d ykrhni! Is it because am just too pretty? Or becuase they're simply jelous mni?

I've been this girl that every guy wants , but why can't I just forget 5aleefah!
Why can't I see other guyz and be able to love them!

5aleefa's love has been haunting me since forever!
He chose 7amda over me? Seriosuly? I bet he's a loser but I'm inlove with this loser!

I decided to wake up mayood and just thank him for kl shay
Meera alx doesn't do this thank you thing but for mayood she would
He's been the only person that I can really trust
I wish I can just fall inlove with him.

Meera: mayood
I whispered

Mayed; hmmm
Meera; wake up
Mayed; meeroo goomi 3ni
Meera; mayood bs 3add !

And I came closer to him , knowing that a kiss on his cheek would make him go crazy and hell definitley wake up.

But when I was about to place that kiss , he pushed me , came on top of me , and smiled while staring at me.

Meera; mayooood! Ur annoying

I tried moving , pushing him away , but he's too strong ;s!

Meera; stop staring!

I blushed ! This dude made me blush!

Mayed; meeraa

Meera; yes?!! UFf mayood bs b5tng goommm :(

Yawad wayhii
W he whispered
Mayed; a7bch efhmi .....

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(7amda)
No , I'm not pregnant!
Twa bs I got my period , this will break 5aloof's heart...
I have no idea why is it taking so long ! I have to be pregnant ;s 5ala9 its been a year maybe ...
Everyone is asking me when and when?
How should I know when?!
Ill be lying if I said that its just too early!
ITS SO NOT EARLY !
Its just too late ...
I don't want 5aleefah to wait longer , he wants this and I do too.
I don't care how bad it hurts , god please just make it happen.






God please don't make me the women that couldn't bring a child to her husband.

H's fairytale 43

Smile ;O wainch!!!! If ure reading this post plz do comment , I miss u !!!

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Thee place was more than amazing.
It was all red , red flowers , red dance floor , red table cloth!

I didn't know that 7beebi thoo8h che 7loo ..
I kept staring at the place with tears in my eyes
He pulled me into his arms mn wra
W he placed his head on my shoulders

5alifah; ya 9dfaa ajmll mn 5ayalaat elg9aa9 , yaa fr9a as3d w a7laa mn kl elfr9! A7bch l drajah enh che mgdr a3br 3n 7ubyy , walla a7md rabii kl youm enh srt london w t3rft 3laich

Shu agool b3d kl elyy galh? I love him , no words can describe 7ubyy l hal ensaan ;p

He turned me around to face him
His hands were around my waist

5alifah; laish t9e7en babe ?
He placed his hands on my face now
Mesa7 dmoo3i w bas 3aini

Ywd eydyy w wadani to sit on the chair
He sat jdaami
W we started talking , I enjoyed the romantic dinner that we had
Everything was perfect bs fj2a 7saait che eny day5a w I so wanna vommit
When I was about to stand up , I lost control

5alifa; 7AMDA!!

Reka'6 9oobi w ywdnii
I placed my arms around his neck w I hugged him che crying so hard
I felt sick mdri shu estwaabi fj2a

5alifa; babe mmkn afhm balach? Twaa were normal
7amda; 5a loo f w ad ni el 7ma m

He took me to the bathroom w wegaf wyay
I wanted to vommit bs wla shay kan y6l3

'3sltt wayhii w srna ylsna fl couch ela7mar

76aait rasi fe 7'6nh w I hugged him
I felt safe yet b6ni kan bynfjr 3lai
5alifah; la 7amdoo bs lain hnii w 5ala9 , goomi elmstshfa!
7amda; ay mstshfa babe , bs che b6ni y3wrni wayd ymkn u know bteeni ..

5alifah; mt2kdh :s l2nh u look wayd t3banah!

7amda; uff m3rf 5aloof :( I'm feeling che mn bar7h ! Che klh aba azoo3 w mat7ml shay

He started smiling chan afr elpillow 3laih
7amda; SHU Y'67k ! 7beebtk mt3wra ok -,-

5alifah; ymkn 7beebti 7aml?

En9dmt. Hal shay ma ya 3la bali 7ta ;s
My face went like this ";O"

3'6aait his neck l2nh 8eharni -.-
7amda; chub I'm not 7aml -.-" its too early
5alifah; ayy too early! Its the perfect timing
7amda; ayyh 5aloof chub maba :(
5alifah; laish enshallah? Bdal ms tstaansain
7amda; l2nh che y3wr :(
5alifah; 6bee3i enzeen galbyy, bachr bnsEer elmstshfa enzen
7amda; enzeen:$ allah cute lw ybna bnt
5alifah; la la our first child lazm walad , ykon rayal elbait yÓum ana m7d
7amda; hmm ma7b elawlad they are naughty -,-
5alifa: 5ala9 3yal twins
7amda; 6aa3 5aloof nawi t'thb7ni -,- !
5alifah; enshallah twins
W he started laughing

7amda; walla b9ee7 ! Latgool che take it back!
5alifah; kaifyy 3yali w kaifyy

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Meera; 6rshtlha msg w ma radat el78eera
Mayed; shu tbain feeha? 5ala9 5lhm y3eshoon 7yathm! Get over 5aloof y3ne ... Fe nass yboonch w ytmoonch wnti mb m3brnhm
Meera; bs 5aloof was supposed to be mine
Mayed; allah ma ketab
Meera; maystwi maystwii :(

She started throwing things 3l ar'6 w t9ee7 w 7alah

Ywdtha mn her hand w I pushed her towards me ...
She was close to me , che 7sait enh I would go out of control any second.
I placed my hands on her sad face w I whispered
Mayed; calm down meeroo
I hugged her w bst rasha

Aaah lw t3rf shgad a7bha

Rf3t rasha w she stared into my eyes

Meera; mayood t3banah ! Walla t3bt why can't he understand eny amoot feeh

Kalamha jr7ni thb7nii bs kl ely agdr asweeh eny a'6mhaa w awaseeha

I took her to my bed w I placed here there

I was about to stand up w a6l3 w a5leeha trgd
Bs ywdt eydyy
Meera; ergd 3ndi ..

I smiled and I slept next to her
She came close to me w she placed her head on my chest

Ywdtha so close , fearing che enh she moves w twdrni broo7i again ..

H's fairytale 42(b)

(7amda)

7amda: ok reemo yalla am done , t3aali mkyjeeni plz

Reem: COMING!!!!!

7amda: walla el3’6eem asm3 so malah da3ii t9ar5een

Reem: chub -.- enzeen 7beebti ill bring my make up stuff w bring out yours 3shan we have wayd choices

7amda: enshallah

When reemo sarat her room 3shan she brings what she needs , I saw my bb flashing red.

I quickly grabbed it , thinking it was 5leefh

But it wasn’t, it was this weird number with the weirdest msg ever

From: 050*******

We need to talk, call bitch.

WTF! Who’s that :S

Uff walla mb mtfyjh 7g hal nass ely ma3ndhm salfh

I decided to ignore and not tell anyone w b3daain today is my day! I should be happy

After a couple of hours,

Reemo had finished putting makeup for me, my hair was done, and I was ready to meet him.

I had all these Goosebumps and butterflies

My fone started beeping , that’s when I realized that 5aloof was waiting for me bara3

7amda; reemo t3aali wyana L 5aayfh I have no idea why

Reem; shu aye wyakm ! razaah laish

7amda: chuuub! Wish me luck

I kissed her goodbye w nzlt ta7aat

I saw him mn b3eed

He was sitting fl syarah , waiting for me to arrive

He looked more than hot

I actually dm3t gbl laa aseerlh

He was just everything I wished for

The way he sits

The way he moves

The way he smiles

Byhtb7ni hal ensaan …….

He saw me and his face just went all happy

I smiled , I was happy that I had this big affect on him

He started whispering and he was now leaning on his car

Waiting for me to take bigger steps and be his in arms

I was now standing infront of him 

Nzlt rasii , I don’t why I can never stare at his eyes

They make me go crazy ;s

5alifa: shu haa?

7amda: shuu :$

5alifa: haaa klh shuuu 7amdoo

Aah my name 3laa lsaanh a7la shay fl dnya

Mn kthr ma jamalah w 7alath chee rw3aa I was shaking

Ma rmt atm wagfaa

Ywdth for strength

I was now on top of him

He kissed my neck

And I blushed even more

7amda: ur so planning to make me go red huh?

5alifah: a7bch 7amda

I smiled and he smiled back

He moved away from the car, opened the door for me

And I got in.

He got in too , I placed my hands on top of his while he was driving to I don’t know where

7amda: etwlht 3laik 5alooofii

5alifah: shuu 7ubyyy

7amda: don’t do this to me -.- adreebk sm3t

5alifah: shu bystwi feech lw 3dti ?

7amda: ma bystwi shay :$

5alifah: enzeen yallaa

7amda: etwlht 3laik 7beebi ;$

5alifaah: a5aaaaaaiihhh amoot che 7amdoo walla

I blushed w I kissed his hands while saying

7amda: bsmllah 3laik galby , wain btwdeeni

5alifah: just wait and see

7amda; u know I hate waiting !

5alifah: deal with it for today

7amda: 5alooooooooooooooooof

5alifah: 3yoonh

7amda: a7bkk :$

5alifaah: uufff ufff em3ii dag galbyyy masr3hhh !!!

I giggled

5alifah: mlktiiii el5fooggg 7beebti , etwlht 3laaich ! shoof elwalah wshh 3emaal fee galb m7booobk 5laani amshii w adwr yal '3alaa droobk

he sang the last part ...

7amda: fdaitk ana w fdait 9ootk ... a7bk 5alooffi wallah

he smiled , and we were silent. actually we had this body and eye language ... chee we talked but we didnt actually talk.
he told me the he missed me alot and i replied that i didnt feel comfartable without him



5alifah: w9lnaaaaa
7amda: WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWW 5aloof

and dm3t as usaul ................

H's fairytale 42(a)

Reem; 7amdoo ur gonna be late yalla! Hell be coming b3d shwei!

7amda; uff look at me kaif mtbhdla !

Reem; ay mtbhdlaa! Gltlch wear the red dress ;@ bsr3h yallaaa

7amda; okkk uffff

I felt like I was going on my first date , che I was extremely worried ! Ma3rf shu albs ma3rf shu agool wlaa aa3rf kaif at9rrfff jdaamh

Awwwnh 5aleefa's plan was
That he stay away from home w chee lain our anniversaryyy 3shan ntwlh 3la b3'6 !

I couldn't stay at home alone , so I asked him if I can go to reems since a7mad is away on a buisness trip
He agreed and I went there
I've been staying at reeem's for 3 days and I miss him ALOT !

Its weird not seeing him around wallah ! At night che ma knt artaa7 fe rgadi l2ni mt3wdh 3laa wjoodh 3ndii !

Anyways so he called me w he said enh he's coming to pick up me w I have to be dressed up
Chee fancy w 7alah

I gott excited that I was finally going to see him , he felt that and he was glad

But the problem is that 7amda forgot how to dress up a9ln :(
I've beeen searching for the perfect dress mn sa3aah
I have trillion of dresses lain al7een mb labstnhm bs klhm fee 3ainyy not nice now
I have to have something big
He's different
He's not like any other man
He's Khalifa AlX

Reem; 7amdoo walla btt25raian lain al7een elmake w elhair mb mswnth

7amda; god mnch ! Now ill do it

Reem; ill put shamoo to bed w byeech

7amda; hurry up!!!!



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(5aleefah)

Mayed; ya5ii shklkkkk 6rr !

5aleefah; hhh yoooz 3nn 7rkaatk elbay5a

Mayed; 7amdoo will go crazy ;)

5aleefah; I hope so ;p

H's fairytale 41

I couldn't think , I couldn't even blink mn el9dma

I tried connecting what I heard and what happened to me but I couldn't
I knew that what I was thinking was akeed true enh meera told mayood to do this and he did it maybe becuase he loves her :s IDK

It seemed confusing and sick !
I cried for so long , ymkn sa3tain bs che yalsa fl 7maam

I heard footsteeps ,,, they made me shiver
Maba meera etshoofni chee :(!

Maryam; OMG 7amdoo:s

She came running to me , hugging me , and saying what's wrong malyoon mrh
I pushed her away
I couldntt breathe mn her hug

7amda; mafeeni shay! W g9rrii 9ootch mafeeni 7d ysm3naa
Maryam; why are u crying in a bathroom alone :s!
7amda; long story ...
Maryam; 7amdoo u don't look fine at all , ill call 5aloof
7amda; ARE U CRAZY! Sit down!
Maryam: butt...
7amda; AGOOLCH YLSI! 5aloof will freak out !
Maryam; tell me then shu elsalfh
I started crying again , just the thought of it makes me tear up

7amda; idk everything :( my marriage , my husband's brother , my husband's cousin kl shay

Maryam; whaat mayood;s ! 7araam he's the sweetest thing ever ! Wallah get to know him 7amda he's charming !

What is she saying ?! Mayood and charming

7amda; no no ! I don't want to get to know him ! I hate him ! I hate him ok :(

Maryam; 7aram enzen ! Shu sawalch elrayal w b3dain meera 5ala9 5leeha 3a 9oob ensaiha chnha mb mawjooda

7amda; aaah u just don't get it ! Its complicated !

I stood up planning to leave but when I raised my face
Lgaait la6oof fe wayhi
I sighed ....

La6oof; shu swaaitebha maryoum:s
Maryam; NOTHING, fj2a algaha et9ee7 fl 7maam
A7eenh by76oon 3lai ana w 5aloof bythb7ni -.-

I laughed ;p they all think that 5aleefa is dangerous because he was freaky gabl
Bs he's not <3

La6oof; chuub u ! 7beebti 7amdoo balach
She hugged and I felt loved
I cried and cried
I don't know che ashya s5eefa t5leeni a9ee7
I didn't know that people could be that cheap w that low

I met people a5aas 3n meera bs they didn't go that low with me ...

La6oof pulled me into a room , kna broo7naa ..

She sat on the chair and I sat on the bed

She gave me a warm smile and she told me to just calm down and breathe , I did.
I need 5aleefah , he's the only one who could understand me 3adel but I know that hell get mad and end meeras life l2nh she couldve ruined our marriage
A9ln I guess that is what she was planning to do ..

La6oof; meera ?

7amda; yes and mayed :(

La6oof; mayood shu y59h:s

7amda; y59hhh fe kl shay la6oof :( he used me he tried to rape me :( he tried to ruin our marriage just because meera told him so :(

I saw la6oofs face che to see her reaction , she was not mn9dmaa and that made me curious !


7amda; what are u deaf?! I told u that he RAPED me :s

She came and hugged me , she was crying too , dmoo3 kanat tnzl mn 3ainha
I wondered why ....

7amda; awaih 7bebti 5ala9! A9ln I got over it ! W b3daain ana w 5aloof are fine now

La6oof; good :) but why would he listen to meera !:s

7amda; I think y7bhaa , l2nh she was like angry w etgoolh I used u w ma7bk

La6oof; omg :(

She started crying even more

I was one who was supposed to cry not her
Hee kanat lazm twaseeni mb ana

I looked at her confused

7amda; wallah we got over it , but enh laish meera tswi che! I need to talk to mayed ! I don't want him to tell 5aloof ! L2nh 5aloof is way 39bi w bydmr eldnya 3laina

La6oof; ok

7amda; la6oof shu ok BALACH! Mn sm3ti esm mayed erktbti !

La6oof; uff mashay!

We went to the bathroom 3shan a3dl shkli w 5aloof mayshk eny 9ay7aa or something.

7amdoo; shoofi 3yoooni kaif! Ashkaraa byshkk

La6oof; aah 7amdoo please mmkn bs enseer downstaairs

7amdoo; ok yalla

We headed downstairs w I saw mayed sitting right there next to 5aloof

5aloof's face was unbelievable

He was shocked yet really mad !

I was going to break down and faint
I don't want 5aloof to know !

5alifa; 7amda come let's go , this is just bullshit

7amdoo; no 5aloof listen to him .... 5ala9 u deserve to know kl shay bsnaa lies

Mayed; seer es2l meeroo bnt elkaaalb ! Allah yl3nha enshallah

5alifa; bs ana u5ook! Che tswi feeni mayed ! Etdmr nfseeti w u touch my wifee

He was getting even madder

The only thing that I heard was a strong slap from 5aloof at mayeds face

It was shockingg

Ywdt eydd 5aloof w gltlh


7amda; aaah 5ala9 let's go this all is too much! You need to do this to meera , she was the one that got us into this and Idc if she's a girl and all that bullshit about not raising your hand on her , she deserves it !

5alifa; seeri erkbii elsyarah wna ba7eel elmshklh

7amda; but 5aloof ! Hal salfh t59ni b3d aba anheeha

5alifa; agoolch erkbi elsyarah w 5ala9 !

Nzlt rasi w I mummbled

7amda; enshallah :)

I did what I was told without even bothering to argue


I kept thinking about 5aloof , I know he's very 39bi and I don't want him to do shay yndm 3laaih 3gb


El7mdllaah were not staying there anymore , were heading to our own house

:)


I waited for hours and he did not show up

I kept thinking about la6oofs reaction toward what happened ! Omg laykoon t7bh wna ksrt galbha by saying that he loves meera


I quickly decided to call her ! Omgg 7beebtii ! I was so distracted with mayed issue that I didn't get to understand her




7amda; 7beeeebti la6ooof sorry wayd :( I understand a7eenh


She started crying on the fone , aaah I know love do hurts it actually can destroy your emotions sometimes

La6oof; why does she have to get everything :( she was the center of attention ! She took away everything now 7ta ely a7bhh! He doesn't even notice me 7amdoo:s maay3rf ana mwjooda wla la2 may3rf kam 3mri shu esmii ! I'm just his shortiee cousin

7amda; don't say this babe! Maybe mayed doesn't get to see u w yt3rf 3laich l2nh he's always in spain w b3dain meera is a bitch 6bee3i bylaa7'6ha akthr l2nh she attracts everyone t3rfen hal shay!


La6oof; I love him 7amda , ma chd fkrt eny a7b 7d thani even though he doesn't know that I exist a9ln ! A7ss lw 7dd rmsnii or '3azlnii chee I feel mad w nervous that I looked at someone '3aair mayood . He's been everything to me w hoo may3rf


7amda; calm down just stop crying w listen to me , mayed is like any other bad guy ! Flirting is a habbit , he does it for fun but he don't really LOVE the girl that he's fliring with. He does it because she's attractive and 7lwa. You have to be different , you have to be the girl that he wants to get married too mb che 7g 2 months w ywdrch. Trust me , guyz are my major ;p I could get a certificate mn kthr ma a3rfhm! 7af'6tnhmm!

Lateefa; so shu aswi?!

7amda; nothing ! You don't go and talk to him telling him that u want him LA2! You smile when he looks at u , you blush when he smiles ! Y3ne edl3ai

Lateefa; it naturally happens mb lazm asweeh

7amda; 3yal 5alaa9! Omg ull bee cute:$

Lateefa; bs he's an ass ! He tried to rape u 7amdoo ! How could I ever trust him or live with him without feeling guilty

7amda; he did this because akeed merro l3bt fe mu5h , tra as 5aloof says mayed is charming ! I caan see it mn wayha elyoum ! He felt super bad

Lateefa; a7bh

7amda; I knoww :*


Lateefa; w a7bch for being such an expert fe kl shay !

7amda; w amoot feech ana :*

Lateefa; fdaait 5aloof 9dg 3eeraf y5taar

I giggled and she ended the conversation .

5aloof came back to the car , looking a7saan

7amda; soo?

5alifa; can we just forget about kl shay estwa gabl and start over !

7amda; bs tell me shu gltlhaa?

He ignored my questionn


And he did this ....

5aloof; hello , my name is 5aleefah , and I'm inlove with u

I laughed and he shook my handd


7amda; well my name is 7amda and you make me go crazy !


He kissed my cheeks and I blushed


He placed the key into the car

Fetaa7 elraadioo w kaanaw 7a6een wsh tabii by rashed elmajed


7amda; esm3 esm3 ! 7ss feeni shwei

I gave him my sad face

5aloof; tra walla a7eenh bd3m ! La t36eeni hal face elsexyy!


7amda; chub chub -,- I love you

5aloof; I know you do ;)




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After 5 months ....

Reem; uff 7amdoo seeri ywdii shammoo ! Ma tskst 24-7 t9ee7 !

7amda; 3aad hay bntchh shay thani , mawaal 9yaa7

Reem; aah 5ala9 elbshkara sartlha! Enzeen shuu its ur first anniversary ;)

7amda; chub :( I feel like shit ! I'm not even pregnant yet;s

Reem; w shu ya3ne! Shu y59 elpregnancy a9ln

7amda; bs I'm supposed to get pregnant y3ne ...

Reem; maybe 3gb , now think about elanniversary ! :$ shu btswwoon

7amda; I don't know x) I guess hell surprise me :$

Reem; enzeen shu 5ath'teelh!

7amda; ma bgoolch t8ldeeni 3gb w t36een a7mdoo la2 la2 -,- a3rf 7rkaatch

Reem; Sa5eeeefaa ! Go diee



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(5aloof)

5aloof; NO! Put that there and place the flowers on the corner

Man; sir , where do u want to place the table and the dance floor

5aloof; I want the table to be in the middle, I prefer the dance floor to be placed infornt of the table

Man; what light colors for the discoo ball?

5aloof; red

Man; okay everything will be ready this evenning

5aloof; thnx :)


Enshallah kl shay y3ybha , now ill have to go and buy a CD of her favorite singer

W b3daain I go check the food order

W I call mayood w as2lh 3n el presents

GOD! Too many things bs its worth it 3shan el7ub