O&K 5

*5awla*

I woke up feeling really dizzy and sleepy
I couldn't sleep last night
3mair changed a lot , he's not the same anymore
If he was 3mair that I knew several years ago then he would never ever leave me while I'm crying alone at night.
What he did made me realize that this statement " people change " is absolutely true. They do change even ur close ones.

Mama; 7beebti 5awool bsr3h 5l9i aklch b3d shway bayoon yshloonch.

5awla; t9dgen mama I doont feel like going anymore

Mama; 6aa3 laish! It will be fun 7ayati.

5awla; I hope so

I couldn't eat either , how will I spend 3 days with him! It will be like 3 years.
I can't look at him , I can't even speak to him.
If he's gonna do this to me and not care about me then I won't care either.

BEEP BEEP

Mama; yalla they're here

My heart literally like stopped for 1 second ! I don't wanna go , I don't wanna see him!

Mama; 5awool yalla shu feech , elbshkara wadat shn6ch

When I was about to stand up and head outisde , he came in.

I paused for 15 seconds or more just looking at him
He looked at me , his eyes said it all
I knew he was sorry , he looked devestated more than me b3d


Ahh 3mair just tell me whats going on

Mama noticed that weird tension , sometimes I feel that she dislike the strong relationship that we have or HAD.

Mama; ahlain 3mair

He came close to her w kissed her head

3mair; halla 3amoo

Mama; 3yal wain m7md w 3fra?

3mair; hmm saraw n7n bnl7ghm

I can see that my mom was disappointed , she doesn't want me to stay alone with me , I felt it.

3mair; yalla 5awla?

I guess he noticed it too.

He offered his hand and my mom waited for my reaction
I held his hand , I'm not gonna do what she expects me to do w after all he's my cousin, she has to respect that.
I don't know if I'm making sense a9ln, m7md is my cousin too but we have boundaries but with 3mair nothing makes sense I guess. Aaah I just need to stop thinking about it

3mair; ma3a elslamah

Mama; allah y7f'6km :) 5awool mama 3gb call me

5awla; enshallah

My mom left and went upstairs

He pulled me into a hug and kissed my head

I looked at him with a sharp expression
I'm not gonna be ok with this anymore

5awla; don't expect me to forgive you

I left him and started heading to the car

I heard his usual " UFF "

3mair is such an angry guy, he gets angry on silly things or can I say mostly everything ?

I sat at the back , waiting for him.

He came and gave me a smirk

3mair; 7ta ma bteelsen jdam 5awool?

I ignored him and started texting

To; 3afoor

*Im gonna kill you! Leaving me alone with him!

From; 3afoor

*i thought ur gonna love it ?! Balach?

To; 3afoor

*mb wagth , bgoolch hnak

He started driving the car, it was like this awkward silence.

3mair: tbain shay mn elm76h

He looked at me through the mirror

I tried ignoring him but god n'6rth:s

3mair: shklii draaiwlch elhndi?

I laughed ! Hahahah mat5yll y3nee

5awla; I guess you are

3mair: 5awool 3shani t3ali jdam

5awla: what u did was shocking 3mair :s knt m7tajtnk w twdrni? Is that how u treat me?

3mair; bs mabach tt3lgain feeni

I was not only shocked now but BROKEN , how can he say this!

3mair: ymkn asafr 5awla w a6wl ,,,

What to say?
I started crying again so now he's planning to leave me?!

3mair; bdrs br3 5awool

5awla; BS! Stop talking 3mair stop! Just drive

3mair: calm down bnoo9l soon

5awla; no take me *sniffs* back home :(!!!!!!

3mair; 5awool shu tgoolen just breathe

He came and sat right next to me
Pulling me into his arms and kissing my head

I hugged him really tight and closed my eyes



*3mair*

Shu agoolch 5awool? My life is already planned for me.
I hate it and I don't think ur gonna like it either.

I don't want to give you hopes about anything. I love you , I really do but were not meant to be.
No one likes us together even our own parents, I don't know shu elreason but its just not possible.

3mair; 7yati enty mmkn twgfeen 9ya7 !

5awla; 3mair just take me to the beach! I need to relax

3mair; sorry walla ma b'3ait a'6aygch

5awla; 3adi bs mta ur going

3mair; next week youm el5mees

5awla; omg 3mair its too soon

3mair; can we not think about it now?

5awla; enzeeen!! 3mairrrrrr

3mair: shuu

5awla; nothing , I just love saying ur name

I looked at her , at this small cute creauture.
She's been my everything, I try to stay away from her because I know ill end up breaking her heart.
I'm not her hero anymore , I used to be.
I'm just an ass. I make her get attached to me and then she looses me.

I don't know if she likes me the way I do but I feel it.

She was trying to wipe her tears, she was smiling right now.

I smiled back. I gave her a pat on the head and played with her hair.

5awla; stop it -.-

She grabbed my hand

I laughed because of her messy hair.

5awla; ur so annoying

3mair; I'm a teaser u know that

*5awla*

3mair; I'm a teaser u know that

I felt like hugging him , well ur like the best teaser 3mair.
I adore u

5awla; yalla goom soog

3mair; t3ali ylsi jdam yalla:@

5awla; ok ok -.- as u insist

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We arrived at the beach , I was so excited. I threw my shoes in the air and rushed towards the water.

It felt amazing, the water touching my feet every 2 seconds.
3afra came by, she gave me a side hug.

3afra; I miss uuuuu

5awla; chthaba -.-

3afra; walla I do

5awla; well I miss you too

I gave her a tight hug and she smiled.

She's my bestfriend y3ne we fight but we love each other no matter what.
She can be annoying and mean but that's 3afoor and I accept it.

3afra; yalla t3ali braweech our room!

5awla; OUR room! NO way! I need my own room -.-

3afra; aaayh -,- let's share a room ! It will be fun

5awla; laa 3afoor :( I'm a neat freak and ur like the most messy girl ever.

3afra; aa5 -.- I knoww lw I shared a room wyach I would feel sick. Like everything will be super clean and neat.

I laughed at her comment but that's me :)

5awla; enzeen emshi wyay , aba ashoof our beach house.

We started walking slowly towards the house , it would be a long walk because the beach is not that close.

3afra; shu mstwi 5awool

5awla; I don't know 3afra, please lat76en 3lai now.

3afra; shu gooly , I know I'm a meanii bs that's for ur own good

5awla; what do u mean

3afra; don't u see it 5awla, if u ever think about loving him che a7s hell break ur heart. They say he's a player.

5awla; I don't love him 3afra w b3dian 3mair is not a player!

3afra; how do u know?

5awla; I know! I don't see him talking to girls w 7alah

3afra; god 5awool y3ne he would never come to u and say " ooh 5awool hay 7bebti bseer brmsha wla b6l3a wyaha "

What she said made my heart ache , but what if I fall inlove bdoon ma7ss, I already have these mixed feeelings. Aah I know what she's saying is true. I know 3mair my innocent cousin
I don't know 3mair when he's not with his family.

We grew up w che ebt3dna shway 3n b3'6
I don't know his secrets now like before.

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*3mair*

M7md; t9dg 3mair! I'm hating this weather, let's head inisde , play some racing games. I miss these days ya5ii

3mair; ana fe 7alah 7mood wnth fe 7alah

M7md; latgooly a7eenh tfkr feha! 5ala9 3mair lazm tnsaha. Mb mn n9eebk

3mair; a7bha walla el3'6eem a7bha

I started throwing stuff and breaking glasses. It made me furious and really angry :s

m7md came and grabbed my hand , he pushed me to the door and started shouting , saying things that I couldn't understand because I was just tired.

M7md; 5ALA9 3MAIR! ENSA!

3mair; lw agdr bs ...

I knelt down and sat on the floor, placing my head between my legs.
I've been tired lately, I just need to sit down alone and think.

3mair; t3ban 7mood mb mrtaa7! Maba '3airha.

M7md; ur engaged dude , 5ala9! A9ln yaytna hni broo7ha '3l6a.

3mair; don't remind me.

M7md; 5ala9 3mair ! Stand up , be a man , and face it. La t3lgha feek tra walla 5awool ma tstaahl

3mair; gltlha 3n america bs ma gltlha 3n shamma

M7md; ma3rf shagoolk , mw8fk 93b! '3l6a kbeera yaybnha hni ! This is just too painful , for u and her

My fone suddenly started ringing

shamma's name appeared on my screen.

M7md; its not fair to her b3d

2ashar 3la my fone w 6al3ni

M7md: hay 56ebtk a7enh w btstwi 7rmtk 3mair

3afra; WERE HERE

I raised my head and looked at her , she was worried , scanning the place and trying to acknowledge what had happen.

She saw me sitting on the floor and she rushed next to me

5awla; 3mair shu feek

M7md gave me a look.

3mair; mafeni shay

I stood up and went to the bathroom. I just need to stay away from her not be with her.

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*5awla*

5awla; 7mood , 3mair balah?!

M7md; mafeeh shay bs mdw5 shwei

5awla; twni knt wyah w he was ok

M7md; la mafeeh shay! Yalla t3ali 5lna nseer enshoof elrooms w we order dinner

5awla; no leave me , ill wait for him.

M7md; 5awool t3ali

3afra; ya 5awool youm by6l3 rmseeh

5awla; NO! He's freakin tired ! I don't know what's wrong with him! I'm feeling his pain because I can see it in his eyes. He's miserable ! Don't u see it :@ what kind of cousins are you?!

I started shouting and tearing up

3afra came and hugged me

M7md; bsch 9yaa7 w m3anah 5awool 3shanh! You're killing yourself

5awla; shu y59k haa shu y59k :(

3mair; 5awla eskti w e6l3i!

He said that while he was in the bathroom! Why is he doing this:s wtf is wrong with him!

I stood up , headed to the bathroom door and started knocking

5awla; OPEN THE DOOR!

3mair; 5awla rw7i

5awla; 3mair please open:( I'm seriously worried

3mair; 5awla RW7I , ma b3eed kalami

5awla; akrhk t3rf shu y3ne akrhk! 1 min ur ok and the other min ur an ass! I hate u.

I kicked the door and started running outside

I heard 3afra and m7md yelling , ordering me to come back but suddenly everything was black.