3mair got back
inside and I was left alone, thinking, WHY do I have to listen to him? Why is
my heart telling me to not be stupid and go while my head is telling me to
ignore everything he says and forget. They always say that forgetting is easy,
just don't think about him. Ngol elshay wayd as'hal 3n nsweh. Reality hits you
so hard when you least expect it. You see, 3mair and I, where never a 'WE' from
the beginning! Why is all this happening, I decided to have feelings for him
when he gets married or I was lying to myself this whole time when I was
convincing my heart that he's just a cousin, a jerk to be more explicit.
'no 5awool, ma
bt9e7en, ma btswen che fe 3mrch, btogfen a7enh w bdshen w bt'67ken, chnah mb
mstwy shay!'
I stood up, fixed
my hair. Smiled to myself and slowly walked back in. I could almost feel the
tension from here. He's holding her small womenly hands and I look at mine,
they look awful. I need to book a nail appointment. Ugh 5awla, snap back to
reality!
I take a seat and
a huge breath of air at the same time.
Haidar: 5awla
shfeech 9ayr wayhch a9fr
5awla: mdry ymkn
mn kthr el akl
Haidar: haram
3laich ya m3wda shno klty a7eenh
5awla: ma 3laina
They were all
staring at us while we're having this useless conversation. I can feel O's
anger, and I'm loving it.
Afra: shu raykm
nseer klna now na5th ice creaaammmmm!!!!
Trying to fix the
crappy mood we are in, said Afra. But I don't want ice cream. I don't want to
see him holding her hands. I don't want to see them smiling. I don't want
another girly '3maaaaaiiiiir' sound coming from that perfect mouth. Seriously.
She's so perfect on the outside, I'm about to go insane. Why would he ever
leave that girl_art_sculpture for me.
3mair: no, kl w7dh
tnjl3 baitha w bla klam fa'6y. Dana tbain nw9lch?
Afra: ha ha bdaina
3mair, no favorites. Stop being biased ya5y, and you'd usually ask 5awool that
NOT Dana.
3mair's face went
pale. Shamma held his hand,
Shamma: babe I'm
tired
3mair: ok 7bebe
mshaina
They stood up.
Said theri goodbyes and left. Dana was surprised,
Dana: did he just
ask to give me a ride? How random
Afra: ikr
7aidar: lol shaku!
Laish kl hal 9dma
Afra: you see
haidar, let me a brief explanation about 3mair, the girl sitting infront of you
is his bestfried, he asks her for everything and us, Dana and I, we're well
nothing which is obviously weird you know. We're the perfect ones.
She rolled her
eyes and we all started laughing. That's exactly why I love this chick, she
changes my mood.
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I was never one to
think I was pretty. My eyes are nothing to compliment. My height makes me a
head shorter than all my friends and family which is unfortunate. So getting
the attention of haidar was just ridiculous. The way he looks at me makes me
feel like he's interested, bs ma b76 fe thmty and I don't even like the guy
'that' way.
A knock on my
bedroom door brings me back to reality.
Laura(maid):
5awla, should I start packing for you?
Khawla: packing?
Forrr????
Laura: your mother
said you're leving to abudhabi tommorow so maybe I thought you want to pack.
Fuck. He did what
he wanted to do. As always. Typical 3mair. But come on, am I dying to go? HELL
YES. Will I ever show that? HELL NO.
5awla: ummm ok
I'll pull out some things and you pack them.
She left and I
looked back at the mirror, maybe a change somewhere would make me feel better.
Maybe change my hair color? I don't know. Something has to make me feel
different and fresh. Am I excited for what's going to happen in AD? Absolutely.
Me. Him. Us. That's where magic happens. O&K.
I don't know if
I'll feel guilty. I don't even know why am I having all these naughty thoughts
in my head. It's not like I'll sleep in his arms or he'll kiss me and grab me
by the hand and sweep me off my feet there. I seriously need to stop watching
movies. Wake up khawla. He's fucking married.
