H's fairytale 46

So ive told 5aloof about my worries toward elpregnancy thing, bs elmshklh he thinks that my worries are not serious.  We planned to go to the hospital elyoum elm’3rb.

Mn el9b7 wna im feeling che sick w mb mrta7a , aba bs a3rf the real reason behind this late pregnancy 3gbb brtaa7.

We were now sitting on the couch jdam eltv.

I was not with him , he was talking w smiling but I couldn’t understand anything. He felt that so he pulled me close to him w he kissed my head

5alifah: 7beebti can u stop thinking about it? Enshallah kl shay ok

7amda: 5aloof shu feek? Its about the rest of our lives w ur not taking it seriously

I got mad , hes making me frustrated

5alifah: do u want me to freak out mthlch? 7amdoo maybe we should try harder b3daain fe wayd nass che its normal

7amda: no its not ymkn feeni shy

5alifah: bsmllaah 3laaich

I placed my head on his shoulders I kissed his neck

He kissed my nose

5aloof: im sure enh mafeech shay w eldector bygool enh well have to wait enzeen?

7amda: enshallah 5aloof

We were getting ready , he took a quick shower and I got dressed.

It was a very silent ride , I didn’t want to talk. I just wanted this thing to be over

It’s a nightmare walla , u can’t imagine how im feeling right now

Its like ill ruin his future , its like its all my fault ! ill be feeling guilty for the rest of my life

Ill feel guilty and ill end up telling him to get married to an another one and live his life

I don’t wanna do that, 5aloof is mine and only mine but I also don’t wanna be selfish

If he cant live his life with me then I have to let go.

While thinking about all these things , a tear found it way down my cheeks

5aloof: rdaainaa 7amdoo? Shu gtlch ana

7amda: don’t leave me 5aloof

Gbl la nnzl

He hugged me and I didn’t want him to let go of me

I kept holding him

I sobbed and cried

He tried to calm me down but I couldn’t calm down

He held my hand w dshaina da5l , 5aloof went w talked to the nurse w elreception staff

They said that we had to wait for mw3dna way eldector

He took a seat next to me, ywdt eyydh w I looked into his eyes

I knew that he wass worried more than me b3d

Bs he doesn’t wanna show it 3shan his sadness will make me even weaker

I smiled and so did he

Nurse: Madam Hamda

7amda: yes?

Nurse: please follow me

I looked at him again and he gave this warm smile that made feel better

we took some tests , both of us , che blood tests

we waited for the results in the doctor room.

Doctor: so you’ve been married for a year now?

5aloof: a year and 7 months

Doctor: well look at the results and see if there are any problems

He smiled and 5aloof smiled back

Fj2aa the nurse appeared with multiple of papers in her hands

Nurse: the results are ready doctor

Doctor: thank you

She gave him the papers and he took a while just looking at them

5aloof: so doctor?

Doctor: well as I can see , the madam is fine but there is something with you sir that’s making it hard for the pregnancy to occur

WHAT?:S

Is he serious?

What is he saying?

I couldn’t even breathe; I kept looking at both of them with a shocked

5aloof looked more than shocked; his face had all these mad and sad expressions

Omg the doctor just broke my husband’s heart

Doctor: no need to be emotional, its ok it happens

5alifah: can u please give me more details

He said it with a mad tone, he wanted to punch the doctor and kill him

I held his hand but he pushed me away, I knew that he hated himself right now

7amda: 5aloof lets just go please

5alifa: doctor EXPLANATION

Doctor: well im sorry sir , but the results are indicating that ure not capable of having babies

And a tear came down mn 3yoonh

7saait eb galby che shwei w byoogf

He left very angry , now I was alone with the doctor

7amda: ur a very cold doctor! U don’t give bad news like that! U just broke my lovers heart

I gave him my angriest look and left

I went to the bathroom and I kept crying for 4 hours

Just crying, I wanted my heart to stop beating wallah

I don’t want to see him again, I don’t know how ill react

My heart ached , ached for our future without any kids

Ached for the fact that my husband will feel the guilt instead of me

I wish so badly that it was me , it was me instead of him

Allah y3een shu byswi fe 3mrh now …

I left the bathroom

And I decided to get a cab and go back home

I called him mlyoon mrh but no reply

I couldn’t even stop crying

I now that he needs to be alone right now

But he also needs me , he needs to know that it doesn’t matter If we have no kids as long as hes with me wallah

I texted him

I called him

I kept voice notes

But no reply