O&K 16

*5awla*

They expect me to smile and greet people I don't even know when I'm broken and vulnerable. They expect me to forget about someone who will always exist in my life and be a part of it. They expect me to let him go not knowing that he was my soul. They expect me to be happy for them even though their marriage has destroyed the only thing that I was confident about, my relationship with O. 
I don't blame them, they don't feel what I feel. They're happy that O is finally going to be a married man that will bring cute kids to the family. It doesn't matter if he loved his wife or if he loved me, they wanted O to get married and start a family of his own. His mother was the happiest, she got what she wanted. Her son away from me and happily married to a girl that she chose for him.
Are you satisfied K? Are you happy with your life?
If you asked me those 2 questions 2 years ago, my answer would be; " yes! I'm happy! Really happy! Everything is happening according to my future plans."
But if you ask me those 2 questions now, I'd say; " no I'm not happy, I forgot how its even like to be a happy person. I lost everything and I'm not afraid to lose anymore. I've lost the one thing that I cared about the most so now nothing matters. Happiness doesn't exist for me, its way too far and I can't reach for it."
But all of this doesn't matter now. O is getting married, shamma is his wife, and K is his cousin.



Dana: 5awool! Wainch enty! Tra bnnzl now bsr3h

5awla; yalla etryaini

Dana; balah 9otch?

She came close to me

5awla; ma balah shay. T3banah bs

Dana; kl ha ma yswa ya 5awla. Mb mn n9ebch w 5ala9

5awla; 9a7 kalamch.

She hugged me and left.

Mb mn n9ebch ya khawla, mb mn n9ebch.

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3afra; shftii hathech danoo mdri shu esmha a'6ni sara, tlw3 blchbd!

Dana; adrii!!!! Fstanha 3ad mool mb 7loo!

3afra; wla amoon eldbah, 6a3 mkayjha chnha g6wa.

Dana; a7enh amoon w saroo 5lehm 3la 9oob, shofi hathech ely fstanha shway w byn6r mb rayma 7ta tmshi!

3afra; hay allah yslmch rbee3t shamma, esmha 79a.

Dana; 79aaa 7ta esmha bay5

3afra; bs 7lwa

Dana; ay 7lwa 9dg ma3ndch thoo8

3afra; e3trfai t'3arain -.-

Dana; a'3aar! Eskti bs gbl ma afrch br3

They both laughed.

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*shamma*

I was about to get married to the sexiest man in dubai.
He's perfect ya allah, maba ydsh 3shan a5af elbanat y7sdoni 3laih.
A'3ar 7ta youm dano wla 3afoor wla 5awol yklmoonh or yshofonh.
A7bh wayd wallah. He took my heart away, I can't wait to carry his babies and be his wife jdma elnas w el3alm.
3mair, 7ta esmh y5bl.

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*3mair*

M7md; bs 3ad eyls mkan wa7d , b3d shwei bn6l3.

3mair; bs a7taj aseer mkan shway w bared!

M7md; 3mair allah y5lek ma nba mshakl, la tswelna flm hndi

3mair; aba aklmha bs! Tra mrat snh w n7na 3la hal 7al 7ta salam ma tslm!

M7md; wayd zain b3d! Tb3don 3n b3'6 ya5i mrtk ttryak hnak 3l kosha wnth tfkr fe 5awla!

3mair; 5awla hay ya m7md

M7md; 5awla byeha rayal y7bha akthr 3nk

3mair; shu etgol entah, ya5i ekrmna b skootk, mat3rf thdi elwa7d. E6l3 tra 39btni w a5af aswi shay yz3lna

M7md; bt'6rbni btsbni sawi ely tbah bs hal kalam ely lazm tsm3h, mn n9eb '3airk!

3mair; mst7eel , ya 3mair ya wla 7d.

M7md; mafek '6amer enta? Elbnt m5ltkn 3la kaifk w ra'6ya b zwajk, 5lha fe 7alha.

3mair; w enta laish dash 3ar'6, hay malty.

M7md; allah yhdek

3mair; yhdi eljame3 enshallah

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*5awla*

I was wearing a red dress, O's favorite color.
I had a red lipstick that even girls would turn lesbian for me.
Lol I'm trying to make myself laugh but its not working.
I know I look hot.
I've lost weight for this wedding and I've looked for a dress just to make O regret this. To know that its his loss but O has nothing to do with this. I guess. He didn't choose shamma.
I had my hair on one side with really luxurious red diamonds.
I feel gorgeous.

Dana; yalla elryayel bydshon b3d shway 5awool, yebi 3batch.

5awla; UFFF mt2kda? Now?

3afra; hayh 5awla yalla!

I went to grab my 3bah and shaila then headed back to the 8a3ah.
My heart was beating so fast, I don't want to see him. I don't won't to cry.

The dj announces that elm3rs we9al w bydsh.

I quickly head outside, yes I can't handle seeing him wearing the bsht and all.

I put on my shaila, grab my bb and head outside the 8a3a.
I sat on a brown couch in the reception and stared at the blackberry screen hoping someone would call or anything that would make me stop thinking about him.
But who am I kidding? Mno byt9l 3lay hal wagt -_-



Suddenly, a tall tanned guy appears and sits infront of me.
I kept staring at him for no reason, he distracted me and I needed that.

Guy; shfeech?

He laughs and I curse
Walla shu hal 7alah, akeed ygol mno hal habla

Guy; shklch 7ta enty yaya mn hal 3rs.

5awla; ana?

I look around to see if he's really talking to me.

Guy; 3yal akoo '3airch

5awla; ma3rf

I smiled and he smiled back.

5awla; t3rf elm3rs?

Guy; la2...

5awla; ooh ymkn tgrb 7g shamma?

Guy; shamma.. La ma t9erli.

5awla; 3yal enta laish yay el3rs enshallah -.-

Guy; entay laish yaya?

5awla; ana cousin elm3rs. Yalla jawb su2ali.

Guy; ana 89tii 89ah.

5awla; tell me, I need something to distract me.

Guy; why? What's wrong?

5awla; drama.

Guy; my life is all about drama

5awla; well this drama is really lame.

Guy; ill tell you my drama and let's see if its lame as yours?

5awla; go ahead..

He moved closer and sat next to me. I don't know why am I even talking to him.

Guy: well the shamma we were talking about was meant to be mine.

5awla; E7LF! Shamma 7aaabeeebtk :o

He shushed me and laughed.

Guy: hadaay ya m3wda shfeech!

5awla; shu shfech entah b3d! Tra my cousin bytzwjha!

Guy; well tgdren tgolen 7ub mn 6araf wa7d. Ma tabeni hal shamma.

I looked at him and felt sorry. So he came to her wedding even though she didn't want him. He had the courage to see her get married to another guy and look at me, escaping mn el8a3ah 3shan mashoofh. Lame.

Guy; is it lame?

5awla; not at all! Its really brave walla!

Guy; brave?

5awla; yes! To come here and watch her get married.

Guy; well I'm happy for her... Shu aswi y3nee life is unfair, enzen yalla w 89tch

5awla; well my story is similar to yours. A7b elm3rs but we're not meant to be too.

Guy; look at how lame we sound. Tra hmm el5sraanen walla.

5awla; you don't get it. He loved me back but they don't want us to be together and now I'm a moron sitting out here just to ignore the fact that he's in there with her.

I started to cry and he looked at me.

Guy; la tbchen 3ad, tra eldnya ma tswa. Kani jdamch, mt7ml w 9abr w 7bebti ma3 wa7d thani.

5awla; allah y3een but you sound like you're over her already

Guy; it happened a long time ago and were ok now but I just wanted to see her happy. So I came.

5awla; I wish I can get over it...

Guy; you will trust me. You'll forget about him.

5awla; kaif y3ne w ana agdr ashoofah kl ym3ah fe bait yadoo w ashoof shamma w ashoof 3yalhm b3d. Walla 8ahar.

Guy; 3ad 9eeri gwya, hal shay beedch, lw b'3aiti tnsainh btnsain enshallah.

I smiled and he smiled back.

5awla; thank you stranger.

He laughed

5awla; so I'm sure you're not emarati!

Guy; yeah , kuwaity.

5awla; knt mt2da! Tbchen w entay.

Guy; mashay a7la 3n 7chena --.--

5awla; wna ma glt shay -.-

Guy; eee 7sbali b3d

We both laughed.

Guy; ma glteeli, shsmch?

5awla; ana esmi 5awla, w entah?

Guy; 3ad hay 5leeha sr.

5awla; 6a3 sr shu yalla 3ad gool

Guy; excuse me, mnjbr aseer.

I was about to say NOO DONT LEAVE ME! But wait, I don't even know him lol.

5awla; well it was nice talking to you tall tanned kuwaity stranger.

He smiled

Guy; yalla ma3a elsalama.


He was walking towards the parking lot but I couldn't. He was the only one who had the right words and felt what I felt even though he's over it, he went through it.

I started running with my 3baya and huge fstan underneath and my ka3ab.

5awla; entaaah kuwaity!

He turned around and stopped.

5awla; 3ad ystwi che trk"6ni wrak to the parking lot.

Guy; shb'3aiti -,-

5awla; naaaaaa7ees maleeee8 3la gooltkm

He leaned behind his car and looked at me.

5awla; LOOK this is really weird and what I'm about to say would sound way wrong but atleast you're not local eiy?

Guy: bring it on.

5awla; I think I need your number, I can give you mine, you're a person I can talk to.

I looked down and he was laughing his ass off.

Guy; tr8meeni ya m3wda!

He couldn't stop laughing.

5awla; never mind

I wanted to head back inside and never see his face again. What did I just do. Am I that stupid? Asking a stranger for his number and giving him mine just because he made me feel secure and calm.


I started walking slowly but then...


Guy: 5awlaaaa!

I turned back,,

Guy: tlfoonch?

5awla; why?

Guy: 36eeni eyah shway

I ggave him my phone without hesitating, WHAT ARE YOU DOING KHAWLA?

He typed something and then gave it back to me.

I looked at my phone and there it was, his name and number.

Guy: I miscalled myself to have ur number too.


I smiled.

5awla; tshrfna 7aidar.

7aidar; tshrfna 5awla.

And we both smiled again.