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O&K 21

3mair got back inside and I was left alone, thinking, WHY do I have to listen to him? Why is my heart telling me to not be stupid and go while my head is telling me to ignore everything he says and forget. They always say that forgetting is easy, just don't think about him. Ngol elshay wayd as'hal 3n nsweh. Reality hits you so hard when you least expect it. You see, 3mair and I, where never a 'WE' from the beginning! Why is all this happening, I decided to have feelings for him when he gets married or I was lying to myself this whole time when I was convincing my heart that he's just a cousin, a jerk to be more explicit.

'no 5awool, ma bt9e7en, ma btswen che fe 3mrch, btogfen a7enh w bdshen w bt'67ken, chnah mb mstwy shay!'

I stood up, fixed my hair. Smiled to myself and slowly walked back in. I could almost feel the tension from here. He's holding her small womenly hands and I look at mine, they look awful. I need to book a nail appointment. Ugh 5awla, snap back to reality!

I take a seat and a huge breath of air at the same time.

Haidar: 5awla shfeech 9ayr wayhch a9fr

5awla: mdry ymkn mn kthr el akl

Haidar: haram 3laich ya m3wda shno klty a7eenh

5awla: ma 3laina

They were all staring at us while we're having this useless conversation. I can feel O's anger, and I'm loving it.

Afra: shu raykm nseer klna now na5th ice creaaammmmm!!!!

Trying to fix the crappy mood we are in, said Afra. But I don't want ice cream. I don't want to see him holding her hands. I don't want to see them smiling. I don't want another girly '3maaaaaiiiiir' sound coming from that perfect mouth. Seriously. She's so perfect on the outside, I'm about to go insane. Why would he ever leave that girl_art_sculpture for me.

3mair: no, kl w7dh tnjl3 baitha w bla klam fa'6y. Dana tbain nw9lch?

Afra: ha ha bdaina 3mair, no favorites. Stop being biased ya5y, and you'd usually ask 5awool that NOT Dana.

3mair's face went pale. Shamma held his hand,

Shamma: babe I'm tired

3mair: ok 7bebe mshaina

They stood up. Said theri goodbyes and left. Dana was surprised,

Dana: did he just ask to give me a ride? How random

Afra: ikr

7aidar: lol shaku! Laish kl hal 9dma

Afra: you see haidar, let me a brief explanation about 3mair, the girl sitting infront of you is his bestfried, he asks her for everything and us, Dana and I, we're well nothing which is obviously weird you know. We're the perfect ones.

She rolled her eyes and we all started laughing. That's exactly why I love this chick, she changes my mood.

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I was never one to think I was pretty. My eyes are nothing to compliment. My height makes me a head shorter than all my friends and family which is unfortunate. So getting the attention of haidar was just ridiculous. The way he looks at me makes me feel like he's interested, bs ma b76 fe thmty and I don't even like the guy 'that' way.

A knock on my bedroom door brings me back to reality.

Laura(maid): 5awla, should I start packing for you?

Khawla: packing? Forrr????

Laura: your mother said you're leving to abudhabi tommorow so maybe I thought you want to pack.

Fuck. He did what he wanted to do. As always. Typical 3mair. But come on, am I dying to go? HELL YES. Will I ever show that? HELL NO.

5awla: ummm ok I'll pull out some things and you pack them.

She left and I looked back at the mirror, maybe a change somewhere would make me feel better. Maybe change my hair color? I don't know. Something has to make me feel different and fresh. Am I excited for what's going to happen in AD? Absolutely. Me. Him. Us. That's where magic happens. O&K.

I don't know if I'll feel guilty. I don't even know why am I having all these naughty thoughts in my head. It's not like I'll sleep in his arms or he'll kiss me and grab me by the hand and sweep me off my feet there. I seriously need to stop watching movies. Wake up khawla. He's fucking married.

 

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Hey all!

I know you guys have been waiting a lot and we (shamma and I) apologise for taking this long! This blog has been abandoned for months and we feel so sad about it so Shamma decided to pass this blog on to me, call me 'W'. I hope I can make it as good as she did and the story will be continued based on my ideas and hers. This blog will mostly be controlled by me but shamma's ideas will definitely be taken into considerations since she's the original owner.

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A post will be published on November 21!
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Xoxo.

- W.

O&K 20

I love you guys and I'm so sorry for making you wait xo.

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5awla: omggg omggg omgg you guys! Here he come! 

Dana: oh god, who 3mair? Maba ashoof uff f'6e7a.

5awla: no no its 7aidar, look at him 3afoor and rate his sexiness from 1-10.

3afra: gosh 5awla, he's a frickin 11.

5awla: eskty eskty yay 9oobna.

Haidar appeared with a huge smile, looking really happy that he finally got to see me and my crazy cousins.

He took a seat next to Afra which made her feel very awkward and shy. I can see her blushing and its just so funny.

Haidar: ma bt3rfeny 3laihm 5awol?

5awla: oh yes! *laughs* so the gorgeous girl sitting next to you is afra and this sexy human being is dana *pointing at her*.

Haidar: nice to meet you guys, 5awla told me a lot about you! I'm haidar but I think you all know that. 

A conversation started easily between 3afoor, Haidar, and I while dana has been making all these weird annoying faces that shows how much she's hating his presence around us. 

I couldn't handle seeing her giving all these rude stares at my friend so I decide to grab her hand and take her somewhere to clear things out.

I'm not the type that is patient nor can hold her temper. When I need to say something, I have to say it at the moment. 

5awla: dana will you come with me? I need to grab something from the car! 

Dana: what? 

5awla: excuse us guys!

I grabbed her hand and pushed her with me to the parking lot.

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*Afra*

I wanted to kill afra and dana, leaving me alone with a hot dude who happens to be kuwaity too.... Not acceptable. They totally forgot about our girl codes.

Haidar: someone is feeling so awkward right now, wanting to kill her cousins for leaving her with a stranger....

Does he read my mind or what? Am I that easy to read?!

3afra: whaattt? Noooo!

Haidar: oh yes, look at those eyes begging 5awla to come back. I promise I don't eat or bite.

3afra: whatever. So are you loving Dubai so far? What's there not to like anyways.....

Haidar: its not my first time in dubai, been living here for months now!

3afra: oh coool....

And the awkward silence starts again... Shoot me now :) 

Haidar: do we order already, IM HUNGRY!

3afra: me too! I'll choose your food and then you'd have to judge my taste.

Haidar: It better turns out delicious.

3afra: well you'd have to compliment me either way. A girl doesn't like to feel like she did the wrong thing or made the wrong choice.

Haidar: I don't know how to compliment people, I'm easy to read just like you are.

3afra: really? I'm not easy to read at all...

Haidar: you're like an open book. Those face expressions explain everything. Right now you're shy, a moment ago you were nervous. You need to hide those feelings a bit miss afra.

And he left me speechless.....

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*Khawla*

Dana: STOOOPP KHAWOOL wain yalsa twdeeny?

5awla: shu hal 7rkat ely tswenha da5l? T36en elrayal n'6rat 5aysa w tt2f'faain mn el9b7 chanah yals 3la galbch!

Dana: well first of all, a weird stranger sitting with a group of girls in a restuarant isn't a nice image by the way :)! What were you thinking? Brining a man to sit with us infront of all these people. What would they say? What would 3mair think if he saw us?!!!

5awla: what do you mean? I don't care what 3mair thinks, he has a wife to worry about, not us.

Dana: yalsa tsm3en klamch? Mylsa rayal '3reb wyana w a7eenh m5lyah 3afoor da5l bro7ha wyah! Enty mb el5awla ely a3rfha..... 9dmteny

5awla: shu 8a9dch dana?

Dana: 67ty mn 3ainy, hatha 89dy :) 

5awla: stop saying things you don't even mean!

Dana: I meant everything! Now leave my hand and let's get back inside!

5awla: ok bs lazm t3rfen enh kalamch wayd '6aygny

Dana: its always painful to hear the truth....

She left me and went back inside. How bitchy of her?

I sat outside for a couple of minutes trying to understand and take in what just happened..... Am I wrong for allowing a friend to get to know them? Is it wrong to have a man as a friend? 

I needed answers but there was no one there to give me some.

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*shamma*

We get into the restuarant and the first thing I see is dana and afra which makes me really furious. This night was supposed to be ours. 3mair and I ONLY. Now I'd have to share him with two more people, they'd ask us to come and join them or 3mair would suggest that we should join them. I felt so bad and angry that I wanted to leave before 3mair notices his cousins.

3mair: oh shamoo, shofy hnak! Dano w 3afoor! 9dfa 7lwa!!!

He hurried towards them which makes me feel really jealous.

Shamma: hey dana, sh7alch 3afra!

I greeted them but then there was this guy who looked so familiar that I couldn't even focus at anything else!

Shamma: OMG HAIDAR?

Haidar: halla shamma! Sh7alch, mabrook 3l zawaj!

Shamma: allah ybark feek, shu hal 9dfa el'3reba! 

Dana: he's 5awla's friend! 

Shamma: really? Well haidar and I have been friends since university.. How are you? M8eem hny wla roo7ah w rdah l'lkwait? W kaif t3rf 5awla?

Haidar: 7aliyan hny! 5awla t3rft 3laiha fl jam3a *he lies*.

Shamma: ooh! Well its nice to see you!

3mair: elsalam 3laikm 

haidar stands up to shake his hands but my hubby gives him this weird 'fuck off' look and returns the shake with a fake smile. 

Why is he so rude? I try to cool things down while having a conversatiom between D, A, and H while O was so busy day-dreaming.

I grabbed his hand from under the table and he gave me a warm smile. I hate it when he keeps on thinking about something else instead of being into the conversation with us.

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*Omair*

So they were all there at the table except for her, where was she?

I didn't want to ask and seem like I care but really where was she?

why did she bring him to a restaurant and she made him sit with her girl cousins. I feel like punching him and slapping her for acting so childish and dumb.

I decide to leave and breath some fresh air outside instead of sitting with a guy who has an eye on my love. I excuse myself which makes everyone so shocked and especially shamma who seemed really annoyed. 

But I had to, this place, this table, elmkan yals y5ngny w mdrebha wain hathech 3shan a6l3 7rty....

I take a step outside and I could see her sitting on that bench near the parking lot. I realized her even though she seemed far away.

I walked closely to her and sat next to her.. She seemed very shocked and she quickly tried to wipe her tears.

3mair: laish t9e7en

5awla: kaif 3rft eny hny

3mair: mb yay 3shanch, bs 6l3t w shftch

5awla: ahaa, mb yalsa a9ee7 :)

3mair: w mno sm7lch telsen w tylsen bnat 5alatch wya rayal '3reeb mat3rfen shay 3nh? Et5blty enty wla 5ala9 nsaity el9a7 w el'3l6?

5awla: lw yay 3shan t36eny m7a'6rah maba asm3ha, dano kafat w wafat, ma g9rt!

3mair: zain tswy fech, el7mdllah w7dh fekm feha 3agl!

5awla: shu tba mny 3mair? Rd da5l 3nd 7rmtk

3mair: 6al3eny 5awool

She looks up and stares at me, I get close and she steps back

5awla: don't even think...... You can't just make me want you and love you when you're already TAKEN by someone else. What a loser I swear!

She plans to get up and leave but I pull her back down, forcing her to sit.

I start yelling 

3mair: so I'm a loser for loving you and feeling like killing you right now because there's a stranger inside that fucking restaurant who likes you!

5awla: la t2lf 3la kaifk enzen, he doesn't like me wla shay w 7ta lw he does tra hal shay mool ma y59k.

I grab her from her hand and I bring her close to me.

3mair: after 2 days, elsa3a 8 el9b7 tkonen ready n7n sayren AD!

She was so confused and shocked.

5awla: AD? Mno n7n? W laish sayren? W hd eydy.

She steps back

3mair: mno n7n y3ne, ana wnty. W laish may59ch bs swy ely gltlch 3nh.

5awla: la walla el2a5 wayd mkyf w ma5th ra7tah! Shu tt7km feny entah, ma bser wyak wla mkan.

3mair: 5awla ana glt, elsa3a 8 tkonen jahza. Ma b3ed klamy.

I leave her and I step back inside.

She wanted answers but I couldn't give her any. I just need her for myself, all alone, away from all of this.

What am I going to tell shamma? I have no idea.

What is she going to tell her parents? No clue.

But I need her. I want her. I crave her.

O&K 19

I looked at my face in the mirror and tbh, I look so young and sweet. I don't know why would I ever let someone who doesn't deserve me to torute me and make me feel bad about myself. I want to live, to have fun.
Love should be the last thing on my mind. The one for me will be coming soon so I shouldn't bother wasting my time on someone I have no future with.

They told me were going to sushi, and I'm so excited. I love sushi! I'd eat sushi all day long.
I decided to go take a shower then glam up for tonight. Before entering the bathroom, my phone starts vibraring and its 7aidar!

I feel so happy, I start running towards my phone.

5awla: 7AAAIDAAAAR!

7aidar: how are you 5awla? Ma ts2len wla edgen 3lay

5awla: 3ad t3rf '6roofi enta kl shay mtbhdl ana roo7i '6ay3a mdri wain allah 7a6ni.

7aidar: ee walla 7as feech. Tawa 3a6eni sh'3l gad rasi moo gadr a5l9h

5awla: allah y3eeenk, 7aidar, you know what! How about you take a break and you come with us to eat sushi!

7aidar: sushi? I hate sushi 5awla!

5awla: not my problem. 3zmtk w btakl w you'll like it! You'll get to meet my cousins. They love kuwaities and I still haven't told them about you! Yalla plzz!

7aidar: enzen 3a shorch, t5leni a7b el sushi ha?

5awla: mn 3yoni

He laughed and I felt like I'm turning red for some reason. You know that manly laugh? Yes that! I LOVE!

We say our goodbyes and plan to meet at the restuarant.
I take my shower, iron my abaya, put on my usual make up and wait for 3afra to arrive.

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I was worried, I kept convinving 3afra NOT to go to sushi and to that same m63m but she ignored me.

3afra: pink wla maroon lisptick?

Dana: chub! Ana fe 7alah wnti fe 7alah! Maba sushi 3afoor maba ufff

3afra: balach enty mst5fa! Shu feech? Warach shay yalla bsr3h goly balach?

Dana: ma balay shay bs

3afra: la bs la b6ee5 yalla 6l3i

Dana: shamma btkon hnak there I said it.

I quickly take a few steps back because I was scared of her reaction.

3afra: PERFECT.

She smiles widely.

Dana: shu:s perfect? Shamma 7rmt 3mair yal habla

3afra: hayh adri shamma shamma shamma! Yaay this is perfect.

Dana: 3AFOOOR la t39beni! A7r ma 3ndi abrd ma 3ndch

3afra: this is like the perfect thing, we sit together, shamma gets used to 5awla and vise versa

Dana: enty '3abya

I throw the pillow on her and run to the bathroom to get ready.
I feel so bad because this will ruin 5awla's day.

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3afra: 5AWOOOL LW MA 6L3TI NOW BNRW7!

5awla: 2 minutes!

3afra: walla bnrw7!

I turn off the phone and watch dana freaking out.

3afra; shklch ymwt mn el'67k

Dana: enty '3bya! T3rfen 5awla btz3l!

3afra: tz3l 7g kmn sa3ah a7sn mn ma etm m'6aygah 6ol 7yatha. Btt3wd 3la 7althm w btkon okay.

Dana: tra they don't know were coming w b3dain a7s 3aib, shamma tba tkoon wya 3mair alone. 3gb btt7sbni ana ybtkm w btz3l.

3afra: may59aaaa!

Dana: embala y59a! Walla omg wayd fashla.

3afra: sharefat w a5eeran

I look back to see 5awla walking slowly towards the car.
She comes and sits in the middle!

3afra: chan 6wlti! Wayd early yaya

5awla; la t6nzain -.-

Dana: halla 5awwol!

5awla: halla 7ubyy

3afra: YOU READY? Sushiii baaabeeee

They all laugh and I see 5awla moving her hands and legs so I knew that there was something she had to say.

3afra: awal dano a7enh enty, fkeena goly ely 3ndch.

5awla: weeellll, remember 7aidar?

Dana: LAA LAAA LA PLZ 5awoool latgolen 3zzmteh

5awla: YES! Please please be nice and social.

3afra: 7aidar that kuwaity dude u met at the wedding?

5awla: yep that 7aidar!

Dana: coming with us? To sushi? Same place? Same time?

5awla: haha balach hayh!

3afra: ok 5awool we have to tell you something.

5awla: shu?

Dana: shamma and 3mair will be there too....

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Dana: shamma and 3mair will be there too....

3mair? Shamma? I felt sick. So I was going to see them. No. I didn't want that to happen. It would be awkward and weird. Especially with 7aidar being there, shamma would go crazy.
All these feelings came through...

5awla: enzen shu y3ne?

I tried to act as cool as possible.

Dana: y3ne 3adi? Bnseer?

5awla: hayh 3adi!

Dana: entu bt'thb7oni elyoum! Laish che bardeen!

3afra: 3adi 5awool 9a7! Were gonna have fun bitches!

5awla: YEAH BABE yalla drive w 76i a'3ani

Dana: text ur 7aidar w tell him enh 6l3na

5awla: my 7aaidar? Haha I like the sound of that ;;)

3afra: oob ooob

5awla: atm95r -_-

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*Shamma*
I changed my abaya more than once, suddenly all of them felt so lame and they didn't look nice on me. He made me nervous. I want him to see me as the prettiest girl he have ever seen. I looked around and grabbed that royal green abaya I had.

I wore it, applied make-up, and waited for him to come back. It was my date. I wanted him to be happy with me.

I called dana and she told me that he loved sushi so were going to have some sushi!

I hear a knock on the door and there he was, with his dark black kandoora and he looked very sexy.

Black looks better than white, blacks makes him look more manly with his sharp features. He smiled and I smiled back.

3mair: yalla?

Why is he so sexy I wondered.

3mair: 6a3 shamma arms mno ana

I smiled again and I held his hand.

I looked at him and smiled for the 3rd time. He makes me happy.

After we got into the car, I got millions of questions.


Shamma: 3mair 5aala9 youm bnoo9l bt3rf!

3mair: 3ad ma7b che aser mkan ma3rfh, w 7rmti tsoog wna ahbal yals chee

I laughed. The way he said 7rmti made me realize how I really chose the right man.

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We got into the restaurant. I took a seat next to dana while 3afra faced us. I was waiting for 7aidar. I needed to see him, I miss him so badly! He made me feel that nothing mattered.
How ironic is that? I MET HIM ONCE and he makes me feel all that. but im so scared that hell se shamma and freak out just like the way i freak out when i see 3mair. i dont want shamma to feel embarassed to but 7aidar said that there was nothing going on, he never told her anything and she didnt love him. shamma would be ok but 7aidar. i hope hes really over her like he said he was.

3afra: there are NO guys here. uff. Maaba chee dano aba awlad 7lween aba 3yooni yshofon wayh 7loo :(

Dana: enty yaya hni 3shan taklen wla tshofen awlad?

I laughed.

5awla: 3afoor allah y3en raylch that's all I can say.

3afra; walla if I had the right guy and he came to ask for my hand, I'd say ok 3la 6ool. Aba atzwj w bs. Maba adrs. Maba at5rj.

Dana: NO PASSION.

3afra: I don't need to work, daddy is enough.

Dana: mashay 6moo7 7g elmst8bl 3afoor?

3afra: la mashay lel2sf

5awla: omggg omggg omgg you guys! Here he come!

They all turned around with their jaws dropped.

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3mair: hahaha sushi mst7el shammo kaif 3rfti.

Shamma: mdri bs elmhm 3rft :$


She looked into my eyes and I came close. I kissed her neck and she felt weak.
She held my hand for support and I thought maybe just maybe I can fall inlove with this girl.

O&K 18

I looked at her and I just couldn't. I couldn't touch her. I couldn't get close enough to do what every man would do if he was in my place.

She was smiling, looking really shy. She looked down.
I closed my eyes for 2 seconds, imagined 5awla's face and I held her face to kiss her.
I kissed her in reality but I kissed K with my eyes closed.

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*Afra*

Dana: omg how weird was that?

Afra: 9dg malh da3i ely estwa klah.

Dana: walla lw ana mkan shamma chan mt, bs ymkn elmskena ma 3rft wain byer.

Afra: '3abya enty b3d aked ma 3rft enh reja3 edwr 5awla.

Dana: walla 5ayfa 3la 5awool w 3la shamma.

Afra: t9dgen dano, amot w a3rf laish um 3mair ma tba 5awla w he mafeha wla 3aib.

I looked at her waiting for a reply but she was too busy grabbing every meal and placing it on her plate.

I grabbed a napkin and threw it at her.

Afra: hey enty yal duba bsch akl 5aiba.

Dana: chub chub ma 5loni 2akl.

Afra: agool skri 7ljch lw3ti chbdi.

She laughed and I smiled. I just love this stupid girl.

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I got back to the house, took off the fstan that was bothering me like hell. Threw everything away. Wore my comfy pj's and jumped on my bed.
I called 7aidar and we had a conversation that lasted for 3 hours. Gosh, I can talk to this person without even worrying what to say next or what hed say next.
I told him about Omair, he said what others were trying to tell me all along, that I have to ignore and stay away even if he came back but this time I understood. He convinced me. My cousins tried to for ages but he did that during a phonecall in 15 mins. How unreal is that?

5awla: 7aidaaar walla bs maroom a'67k zyadah.

7aidar: shda3wa 5awla, t'67ken a7s mn ma tbchen 9a7?

5awla: 9a7 bs ma knt a9e7 ana wya wayhk knt ashkelk bs.

7aidar: ee ee shway knti w tbchen.

5awla: kaifk -,-

There was silence for 2 mins but then..

5awla: 7aidar

7aidar: halla

5awla: ana mstansa eny shftk, 6l3t mn el3rs w eltgait feek

He laughed

7aidar:ee 5oosh 9dfa

I smiled.

5awla: laish enta hni

7aidar: 3ndi sh'3lah 6wlt, knt lazm abga hni 7g sh'hrain bs hal sh'hrain 9araw sntain.

5awla: w che btst8r hni

7aidar: la ma'6ni, elkuwait lazm ardlha

I felt sad when he said that.

5awla: SOOOOO! I'm so sleepy

As always, I take the easy way out.

7aidar: good night 5awla.

We said our goodnights and closed the phone.
I slept with a smile, I forgot about the fact that he may be leaving but hey phones exist. I also forgot about the fact that my lover would now be sleeping next to a women that's not me.
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I looked at my other side and I saw her right there, next to me, sleeping.
I was disgusted. I don't know how I've done what I've done. It doesn't feel good at all. I want to go and take a shower to feel good.
I don't want to do this to someone I have no feelings for. This is just hard. I feel like shit.
I got out of bed and headed to the bathroom. I washed my face a couple of times. I sat there for hours, thinking about everything.

I can't do it. I'm not getting any younger, I dont want to have kids with her. There is nothing wrong with shamma. She's amazingly innocent but the problem is that she's not khawla.

I picked up my phone and I called her.

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While I was on cloud 9 sleeping like a princess, my fucking phone couldn't stop ringing.

Is it Dana?
Is it Afra?
Is it 7aidar?
Who should I murder?

But unfortuently the person who called was not part of the list above.
I was shocked. My hands were shaking.
I rubbed my eyes and I sat up.

I said bsmllah and I answered the call.

5awla: aloo

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What was I doing? No what was I thinking?
When I heard her voice, everything felt good

3mair: aloo

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3mair: aloo

What should I say? Should I ask him why is he calling or should I uff I don't know.

3mair: 5awla

I bit my lips.

5awla: halla

3mair: ana ta3ban.

My heart ached. He sound tired, more than tired.

5awla: mn shu

3mair: la tst3b6ain

5awla: mb yalsa ast3b6

3mair: shu tswen

5awla: knt ragda

3mair: y3ne w3aitch

5awla: hayh

3mair: a7sn

He laughed and I laughed too.

5awla: 78eer

3mair: sbalah

5awla: bntk elsbalah mb ana

3mair: enzen 5lena mn bnty, 5awla

5awla: hmm

3mair: gooly 3mair

5awla: 6a3 ha laish enshallah

3mair: enty bs goly

5awla: 3mair

3mair: b3d

5awla: 3mair bs shu hal s5afah

3mair: a7bch.

I teared. That was so unexpected.

5awla: 3mair please stop it walla *sniff* I hate feeling bad about myself and I don't know. Just don't call.

He closes the line and he leaves me like this.
Shocked. Confused. Sad. Lonely.
Ufff I feel like a bitch. I feel so bad and ugly. Why would I make him do this to shamma? Laish a7rg galbha w a3wr galby?
Knt lazm mared 3l phone a9ln. Stupid me.
One word changes everything.

I sent him a text

5awla: est'3fr rabk, et3wath mn eblees w seer ergd enzen. Forget about it, Its like nothing happened. Were just hurting each other w njr7 ensanah malha 59.
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I read that text and I cursed.
Whenever I tell myself that I should stop thinking about her, I get back to the same start point where I get weak and I call her and I obsess over her.
5awla feha mlyon 3aib w feha ashya2 akrha lakn a7bha.
W shamma ma shft mnha wla shay '3l6, thtm feni, ma tjr7ni, t76ni fe 3yonha bs mb raym 7ta a6al3ha.

I took a shower and went back to sleep.

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Next Morning...

@ shamma and 3mair

*shamma*

There he was sleeping looking adorable.
I got close to him and kissed his lips.
He opens his eyes, looks at me, then goes back to sleep.

I frowned. Maybe he's just tired.
I got out of bed and I head to the bathroom. I see his phone and I laugh.
Did he forget his phone in the bathroom?

I grab his phone and I place it back on his desk.
I changed my clothes and brushed my teeth.

I sat infront of the tv and waited for him to just wake up. I felt so bored.
I went back to our room and opened the lights.

Shamma: OMAAAIR YALLAAAA nsh

I see him moving and starting to rub his eyes.

I go and sit next to him on bed.

Shamma: tra malait wna yalsa broo7i.

He grabs my hand and pushes me

3mair: enty habla? 7d ygwm ensan naym che?

I got so scared, he was pushing me and he looked so angry.

Shamma: hdni 3mair shu feek.
I threw his hand and I went back to the 9alah.

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*3mair*

A7enh ana mtfyj ayls az3lha w 3gb ara'6eha. 7alah hay.
Bs 9dg ana ragd shu y59ha feni ma tfhm eny t3ban.

I get up so angry and head to the bathroom.
I go back to the 9alah and I look at her sitting there looking so sad.

I sit next to her and I grab her hand.

3mair: tra akrah shay 3ndi youm ana naym w 7d eye w ygwmni. An8hr.

I smile and she smiles back.

Shamma: sorry bs walla malait broo7i galby.

I hugged her and I kissed her head.

3mair: nt3sha br3 elyoum?

Shamma: hayh please 3mair!

3mair: enshallah 7abebti. Yalla goomi 5lna nnzl ntryg t7t.

Shamma: ana jahza enta bs elbs 3dl.

3mair: balani ana labs 3dl.

Shamma: btlbs cut? La ma7b. Kl 7d yshofk a'3ar.

I smiled and she looks away.
I kiss her neck and she turns red.
Isn't she just cute?

I was about to get up and go change but she holds my hand, stand up, and kisses me.

Shamma: a7bk.

I smile and I remember K.

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Dana: elyoum bnser nt3sha br3 LAZM!

Afra: ok goli 7g 5awla, bnser nakl sushi.

Dana: la la mb sushi, bt'thkr 3mairo w btels t9e7. Mafena.

Afra; shu y59 3mair now, ana ensanah mshthya sushi ya5i.

Dana: sushi 7ub 3mair enty yal zag, yal DUBA

Afra; entty elduba. Ma shb3ti mn akl ams?

Dana: la ma shb3t w mb sayren sushi.

Afra: bnser sushi w btshofen a7enh bgol 7g Khawla

Afra grabs her phone and bbm's K.

Afra:
SUSHI? DINNER? 7:00?

5awla:
YES!YES!YES!


Afra: galat yes w mt7msa :)

Dana: kaifkm ana 5brtkm. 3ndi e7sas enh hal sushi bydmr youmna.

Afra; agoool 5fi 3lenaaaa please danoo tra enty bs dana alx mb w7dh t3rf elmst8bl.

Dana: CHUB CHUB CHUB ana a9ln mtfyjh a7atekm

Afra: fkri fe b6nch w el7ayah 7lwaa :B

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*dana*

Shamma just called me and asked for a place to go for dinner. She told me she wanted a place that 3mair loved and I told her he loved sushi. WHAT IF THEY GO THERE TODAY AND WE MEET UP!!! I'm so scared.
I don't want to tell the girls about shamma's phoncecall because 5awla will get dramatic to the fact that I'm talking to her and afra would be typical afra. She wouldn't care, she would love the fact that 5awla would get used to 3mair and shamma around.

I don't want to hurt 5awla and I don't feel like hurting shamma too. I love them. Were not going to eat sushi, I'm so convincing them to change plans
I hope this works.

O&K 17

*Dana*

Dana: hathech wain e5tft 3afoor!

3afra: walla mdrebha .. Chnha 6l3t.

Dana: '3abya! 6al3a wagt '3l6 y3ne a7eenh elryayel klhm br3 fl reception w he mat3rfenha kaif tst7i 7ta mn her shadow.

3afra: ya allah 9dg bt'thb7ni hal bnt, lazm ayls ajablha 24-7 3shan matswi shay yf'67na klna.

Dana: 5ala9 eskti 3n tsm3 shammo.

Me and 3afra were standing next to shamma, watching 3mair slowly walk towards her. He looks really good, handsome.
But I was really worried about khawla, I kept searching everywhere for her but I was sure she wasn't in the 8a3ah. She left.

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I quickly left the parking lot and headed inside. I couldn't stop smiling, finally I met a new person who can't judge my past. I finally found someone who I can talk to and hed understand without me trying to explain.

When I entered the reception it was filled with men. White kandooras everywhere! I was about to faint but I had to head inside the 8a3ah, I'm sure 3mair left with shamma by now. Its 2;30 am so they'd already be in the car heading to the hotel.

I got into the 8a3ah and I saw my family on a table having dinner. I sat next to dana and grabbed a plate but before I could open my mouth and start eating, they started staring at me and I was waiting for their lecture.

Dana: WAIN KNTI?!

Afra: tra 3aib, klna kna wagfen ela enty enzen.

Dana: w b3dain kaif t6l3en wnti t3rfen enh ryayel eldnya bykonon bara3.

Khawla; wal wal wal! Hadoo! Srt 3nd sayarti.

Dana: wallah? E7lfi? Mat'thkrti sayartch ela al7en , youm bydsh hoo.

Khawla: walla 3ad kaify maba ashoofh maba ashoofhm shu y59km feni 5ala9 5aloni broo7i.

Afra: agoolch krmena b skotch w eat wayd a7sn

She gave me a death stare and dana rolled her eyes.
I just wish they felt what I felt. They don't know the pain.

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He was holding my hand and we were heading to the car. His mom was holding fstani mn wra and someone held the b5oor and helped me get into the limo.
He was queit.
He was cold.
Maybe he was nervous?
I don't know. I just didn't feel the excitement.

His mom left and my mom left. I was in the limo and he was outside, saying his goodbyes to the family and some of his friends. I waited for him to get in but it took too long.


3mair: shamma shwei bseer w bared ok? Bs shwei.

Shamma: awaih 3mair, wain btser hal wgt.

3mair: etryaini shwei fl syarah.

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They were talking to me but I wasn't there. All I was thinking about was her , K. Where was she?
I had to find her before leaving. 3ndi kalam mal snh. Bs kaif bagolh ana ma3rf.

I threw the bsht in the car and the '3tra + 3gal and ran back inside.
I was running like a crazy man looking for something special he lost.
I entered the 8a3ah, and there she was.
Nobody was in there.
Dana
Afra
K
And cleaners.
She gave me her back while dano and 3afoor gasped when I entered.

Khawla: bsmllah balakm yal 5bayl.

I heard her voice that makes my day. I felt weak. I wanted to run towards her and take her into my arms.
Her dark black hair.
The smell of her favorite perfume.
Her red dress.

Dana: 3mair!

Khawla: seeri walli rdaina?

Afra: la la 5awol 3mair 3mair warach.

Khawla: tt6nzon? A'67k?

3mair: 5awla

She turned around slowly and looked at me.
She was shocked, her face just what I needed to see. She looked more than beautiful.

I smiled.

Dana: 3maairoooo! Enta maynon? Shu yaybnk hni? Wain shamma!

Afra: agool m95tha 3ad

Dana: OMAAAIRR! Tsm3?

They were talking but she was queit. I wanted to hear her comment. Her voice. Her words.

Fj2a, her fone started ringing.

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My heart was beating so fast. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't talk. I couldn't move. He came all the way back just for me, to see me?
Am I supposed to feel happy or hate myself for having another girls man?
I don't know. I was confused.

His hair, his eyes, his smile.
The kandoora on him.
Oh God.

I feel my fone vibrating and rashed almajeds song starts playing.
I wasn't there. I was with omair on our land living our fantasy.

Dana: 5awol! Mobaylch!

Afra: HEEY ENTY! Your fone is ringing!

I was completely starting at him and he loved it. He was smiling. I'm still in shock.

5awla; ana? My fone?


I slowly moved my ears towards my hand. It was really hard. It was like my eyes were attracted to his eyes.

I clicked the button and said " aloo" without even seeing the caller.

Khawla: halla 7aidar!

I smiled and they all gasped.

Dana: 7aaidar mnoo


I shushed her

Afra: yal 3yara golly


I grabbed my shaila and slowly headed outside. I totally forgot about his presence.
I bumped into him before stepping outside.
I thought I was dreaming and my fone was the alarm or 7aidar was the alarm.

3mair: wain w mno ha 7aidar.



5awla: shway 7aidar 3gb bt9l feek.

He said ok and I closed the line.

3mair: s2ltch s2al.

5awla: 7aidar, 7aidar hatha ely wyay fl jam3a , ely wyay fl group. Hayh group ysa3dni.

3mair: wly wyach flgroup byt9l fech hal wagt. Ma3ndh email y6rsh, lazm r8mch? Shu yba?

I was scared and I couldn't focus. He was so close. I couldn't lie. I was trying so hard to lie.

5awla: 3mair shu fek? Balak gltlk wyay fl jam3ah 5ala9 hdni.

He pushed me away and I almost fell. I grabbed the chair.

5awla; laish edz walla? Agool ser jabl mrtk a7snlk w 5lni ana fe 7ali. Tra ana 3ndi e5wan w 3ndi obooy walla.

3mair: walla w t8len adabch? A9ln ana el'3l6an ely yay armsch w adwr 3laich. Y3ne shu al7en kl ma bntshawf bnels nt'6arb w nsb b3'6. Mno sm7lch t36en r8mch 7g wa7d '3reb y3ne lw oboch 3eraf bykon ra'6i?

5awla: hayh! L2nh he's my classmate w y7taj r8mi 3shan were working together.

3mair: tra kalamch mb dash 3gli.

5awla: a7sn.

I grabbed my heels and started running outside.

I felt like crying and commiting suicide. Why why why? Why do we always fight? Why is there  always something to argue about?

A9ln laish laish trden 3la 7aidar jdamh laish yal habla?

Chan al7en yalsen trmson w ygolch ely fe 5a6rh.
Uffffffffffffffffff :(

He came back inside 3shanch. Wadar his wife 3shanch. Wadar kl shay 3shanch.

Bamoot.
Uff.

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Dana: 3mair please rd 3nd shamma w la tf'67na

3mair: t3rfen mno 7aidar 3afoor.

Afra: walla ma3rfh ya 3mair w la t'6ayg 3mrk tra galtlk hoo mno w please rd 3nd 7rmtk wain mwdrnha enshallah.

3mair: ana mt'6ayg walla. Ma7bha mabaha 3aysh 7ayat rayal thani. He mb 7gi ana.

Dana; est'3fr rabk 3mair w rd 3ndha.

3mair: a7bha hathech dano walla a7bha walla abaha walla.

I threw everything around me and headed back to the car. lw ana ma aswa shay 3ndha w ba3tni che 3yal galby 3afha.


Shamma: OMAIR! Walla 5ft wain rw7t?

3mair: mashay 7beebti.

I kissed her cheeks and got inside.